Re: Suicide is a very sad and scary thing!
Mercury wrote:You've had another horrible, terrible day at school. The cheerleaders were mean and nasty to you again. Your beautiful and sexy ex girlfriend has just hooked up with a violent gang banger. After school, you pleaded with her to leave him, telling her that he was a violent gangster capable of killing, but she backhanded you across the face, spat at you, and called you a horrible derogatory name, then her new boyfriend came along and shoved you to the ground and threatened to kill you.
When you get home, you go to your room and burst into tears. You have had enough and are ready to totally give up. You take out the suicide note, then grab the bottle of pills and take them all at once. Laying down on your bed, holding the suicide note to your chest, you close your eyes for the last time.
3 hours later, your brother comes in and tells you that dinner is ready. You don't respond. He gets your parents. They come in and try to wake you up. Then it hits them; you're dead. They and your brother burst into tears. Then they find and read your suicide note and cry even harder while holding each other. Everyone is too depressed and heartbroken to eat, so the entire dinner goes to waste.
But the next day at your school is a different story. A callous and cruel story. When the Principal announces your suicide, the girls erupt into loud and noisy cheering. Half the school is literally like that scene out of the Wizard of Oz right after Dorothy's house crushed and killed the Wicked Witch of the East. The cheerleaders are literally; "Hip hip horray! (several times repeated) The loser is dead! One less sore loser wasting our oxygen!" They roar with laughter and can not help but feel immensely proud of themselves. They even say literally; "He'll never bother us anymore, the slime face sore loser he was!" Your ex girlfriend jumps for joy and says to her new boyfriend; "What a sore loser my ex was! You are the best guy I ever met." To which he replies; "At least I don't have to kill him now, he's already killed himself. Good riddance to him." To both, the news of your suicide is equal to news that they won a multimillion dollar lottery and tickets for a 2-week Royal Caribbean cruise. Very few if any students feel sad about your suicide. The teachers rap their desks to quiet the roaring students, but the girls only laugh all the louder. Numerous detentions are issued, but even that doesn't stop the cruel laughter. Many girls even cut their detentions and are given heavier disciplinary consequences. As toxic, spoiled, selfish, and hateful Americans, your classmates can not control their immense joy about you being dead.
5 days later, it's your funeral. Only your innermost circle of family came. They knew you, the guy with the bright sweet smile and loving personality. Many are crying very hard. Suddenly your ex girlfriend and her new boyfriend drive by and do a drive by shooting on your funeral with an AK-47, spraying the services and hitting your dad. Your brother tries to stay strong through it all. But as soon as they lower your casket into the ground and haul your dad to the hospital, he loses it and breaks down heavily.
It's 7 years later. Your dad has recovered from the shooting, but your parents both battle heavy depression and so does your brother. Your ex girlfriend is married to the gang banger guy who is now wanted by the FBI for multiple counts of capital murder (cop killer), armed robbery, assault with a deadly weapon, bomb threats, arson, and he also has recently escaped from prison and shot down a pursuing police helicopter with a stolen sniper rifle, causing a massive pileup of police cars resulting in numerous more officers killed and many more injured. The cheerleaders you tried to mingle with have moved to the ghetto and are married to violent killers, three of whom have even gunned down and murdered guys who tried to interact with the former cheerleaders.
Suicide is indeed very sad and scary. And in America, the main root of all suicides is simple; America's own toxic, soulless, disconnected, hateful, paranoid, venomous, and totally inauthentic culture. And by the way, Jesus said that anyone who hates another, especially without cause, commits murder in his/her heart. When someone commits suicide, you are literally talking thousands; yes, even millions of people that are literally guilty of murder in the heart. People who brushed the suicide victim away like a pesky fly, ignored him, told others to stay away from him, called him derogatory names, held up their default ice walls towards him, and all else.
You know I want to say this life takes monumental effort - If you don't try, if you aren't trying...you will be dissatisfied, chances are you will be dissatisfied anyways, but you don't stand a chance. It's an unhappy life - for everyone I'm concluding. You aren't treated as you should be, often times you fall short. You feel lonely, confused and stressed out, bad feelings most of the time.
Most of us by the time we get past adolescence - if we are lucky enough to have a head about us...still struggle.
I've thought that basic is better. I often think of between two different things - the Religious way to go about life...and the purely visceral. What I mean is, the core essence of life is brutal, honed, animal instinct in a very real sense, especially when dealing with sexuality. What I mean is you have to somehow put aside everything you're taught...and realize especially if you're a man, that to get what you want you have to go for it. You can't listen to brainwash that comes from religion, parents, society in general... if you're going to get lucky scoring. Or to get anything in life in that regard. It's a very harsh reality.
People that adopt this mindset usually are very satisfied, they achieve what they want to and set out, they have clear vision.
Others pacify and get sucked into people pleasing, following a religion, pleasing parents...doing what others tell them to, etc. That's what, I think, happens to most people. Then, you have those who seek the real spiritual path. They seek beyond legalism of Religion, the seekers, to find the core of the human essence and our essence on this sphere called Earth. I am one of these types, for the most part. We all have parts of many.
I'm not sure which is the best.
But I can leave you with one piece of advice - here is an Egyptian proverb that's helped me.
Listen to your conviction, even if they seem absurd to your reason.
Here are some more:
Proverbs were important in ancient Egypt. “The kingdom of heaven is within you; and whosoever shall know himself shall find it” indicate that Egyptians believed in the divine essence man possessed. They believed in the concept “Know yourself”. Proverbs are mostly inscribed on temples.
Some ancient Egyptian proverbs:
True teaching is not an accumulation of knowledge; it is an awaking of consciousness which goes through successive stages.
. The man who knows how to lead one of his brothers towards what he has known may one day be saved by that very brother.
. People bring about their own undoing through their tongues.
. If one tries to navigate in unknown waters one runs the risk of shipwreck.
. Leave him in error who loves his error.
. Every man is rich in excuses to safeguard his prejudices, his instincts and his opinions.
. To know means to record in one’s memory; but to understand means to blend with the thing and to assimilate it oneself.
. True sages are those who give what they have, without meanness and without secret.
. There grows no wheat where there is no grain.
. The only thing that is humiliating is helplessness.
. The best and shortest road towards knowledge of truth is Nature.
. Know the world in yourself. Never look for yourself in the world, for this would be to project your illusion.
. Have the wisdom to abandon the values of a time that has passed and pick out the constituents of the future. An environment must be suited to the age and men to their environment.
. The key to all problems is the problem of consciousness.
. Altruism is the mark of a superior being.
. Man, know thyself and thou shall know the gods.
. Growth in consciousness doesn’t depend on the will of the intellect or its possibilities but on the intensity of the inner urge.
. An answer brings no illumination unless the question has matured to a point where it gives rise to this answer which thus becomes its fruit. Therefore learn how to put a question.