Well I was referring as soon as when I lose weight I plan to undergo fat grafting in order to look young again since I don't have as much baby fat as I did back when I was 18-19yrs old. Also I remember that my neck had more baby fat 10 years ago even though I was thin. The fat that I'm overweight now I can see myself in the mirror that I have lost baby fat since then. I have looked at pictures of myself that were taken 10 years ago and I remember looking at the back part of my hand and my knuckles weren't as visible as they are now.Seeker wrote:Look your face is already too fat as it is, the last thing you need is to be adding fat to your face, and who the f**k ADDS fat to their neck and arms wtf! You need to get lean first and perhaps get a better haircut. Once you're lean and maybe a bit more muscular then you can consider going for foreign white girls. In the meantime try and get out there and make some friends, take up a sport and/or some kind of group activity that forces you to interact with others. You seem to have some mental health issues so you could consider getting help with those too.Inter2002 wrote:The reason why I would consider "Fat grafting" is because just by looking pictures of myself when I was 17-18 years old I've lost baby fat in my neck and facial area. Also I've been losing in my arms as well. If I had fat grafting I would have the same tone, texture as I did when I was 18-19yrs old. Also I would need to lose weight since I was thin when I was 18 but had the baby fat in my face, neck, and arms.
By limiting yourself to white girls (and good looking teenage white girls at that) you really face an uphill struggle at this point. You might have better luck with a light skinned Latina but given your self-racism issues that may not be an option for you.
I need to know what haircut would make me look 18-20 years old, or in other words hair styles that 18-20 year old guys have now. As of now I'm planning on possible go back to volunteering at a food pantry. Also as for group activity I don't know if considering joining a gym membership would work. Also I thought of going back to college and study abroad that way I would interact with foreign 18-22 years old students.
I don't know if it's more self racism, or self hate or both. I feel that it's not as bad as it was many years ago. I thought about this perhaps just to practice, and gain social skills especially when it comes to dating, as well as just to mess around(getting off my system of having sex with any hot and sexy girls) before getting into a serious relationship I suppose that I could date a light skinned/European looking Latina, a Eurasian as well, and an Asian, before dating good looking blonde/brunette, white foreign girls and white Latinas.