S_Parc wrote:Instead of contemplating one's end, how about actually learning the 90 Pimsleur lessons (see interlibrary loan) and embarking upon befriending the senior members of the ex-USSR diasporas? You seem to forget the basics and that's that one needs to communicate and win over the families of any future bride.
Before I'd gone to Thailand, I did the Thai I set of 30 lessons, within a month and a half prior to my departure. You've had a lot more time and you're still in the ordering lunch section. I would have imagined that by now, you would have completed the 1st set of 30, if not all of them. IMO, that's not really the work ethic of a so-called Bushido but that of every other Tom, Dick, and Harry w/ no urgency of going to Russia someday.
In addition, your Samurai friends are all gone. That was the Tokugawa era of Japan, which had ended in the 1860s. Whether or not you yield to some medieval warrior code will not get you a star on some shield. That's a fantasy world of yours. You can live in it but realize, no one cares, not even the ghost of last Shogunate.
I just took a virtual trip to the pirate's bay. I've gotten myself the remaining lessons and now have all 90.
I know that no one cares about my code expect me. It's something I could talk about why I have that code but you're right. No one cares about the codes I follow. Most people live by zero codes or they follow the feminist agenda, the national agenda, the party agenda, conform to the immorality of modern society, or live by "YOLO" and do whatever they want. Hollow codes of hollow people and empty societies and decaying nations in a broken world. I am one of the only people that has a heart and the willpower to never surrender.
How many popular music artists on the top 10, top 20, or top 50 can I name? I couldn't name a single one. I don't listen to most modern popular music that everyone else does. How many sports games do I watch? Honestly, zero. Will I vote in the next presidential election? No, it's a waste of time. Do I keep up with celebrity gossip? No! How many supermodels do I desire or am attracted towards? Honestly, probably none. I'm not partaking in the "Bread and Circuses" and I will not act like a modern barbarian that would sweep a tainted harlot off her feet and marry her, after dozens of other barbarians used her like a sex doll.
I learned that trying to rush life never works out so I changed my strategy to take things slow and be more about the present.
I don't have an urgency to go to Russia because I am patient and I know I need funds. I would like to take a trip to see Russia first-hand, but it's unwise to spend little savings for a fun or exploration trip when it depletes savings that could be used for better purposes. The main thing in life is to focus on myself and improve myself. The way I am now I am unsuited to have a relationship because I can't offer a girl financial stability, enchant her, and afford to keep her. That's why I'm saving to go abroad to teach English or something in the near future. It's a slow process of saving but in time I will get there.
because you know its the truth.... *smile* 
