Slow Death Through Loneliness

[gnosis]

I just breathe with relief when i see the alternative would be to rot in a truly lonely FL suburb, or when i see the house-sized trolls some of the western tourists are stuck with.

Yeah, me too. I am grateful that I don't have a shrewish wife and a mortgage. I realize that I am never going to have it all in life, and I've made my peace with that.

There are always trade-offs in life. Libido/chi/life force energy is always limited too.

Want a stable career? Then you're probably going to have to work in a soul-crushing environment.

Want a wife and kids? Forget about travelling and spending time with your friends.

Want to pursue your own business or freelance? You'll have to work crazy hours and live with uncertainty. Or not work crazy hours and live in relative poverty.

Nobody in life except a scion or a potentate gets the super-deluxe-everything-included life package. If your Dad is the king of Thailand, then yeah, you're set, no worries. Otherwise, you're going to have to give up something.

[Ghost]

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[Winston]

From my Chinese female friend in Shenzhen, China. Lol

"So you very cares mental health very much,but for me ,I care about job more ,I have to spend more time on studying for passing test , as only test is passed ,my job would be better , I may get promotion"

Like a job is all you need to be happy. Lol. Yeah right. Americans think that too. She thinks a job cures loneliness. Lol. Yeah right. Weird chinese logic.

I think in ancient times people built their own house and planted their own crops and were self employed. Jobs are a modern invention. Not natural in human history. Having a job isnt going to make you happy if youre lonely with no social life or dating life. If youre lonely and depressed you have no motivation to work. Thats what America doesnt understand.

Jobs were a product of the renaissance era when capitalists and corporations began exploiting people for labor. It enslaved people and made them resources and products. Before that, most people were self employed. Erich fromm wrote about this in his book "escape from freedom".

Dont you hate how time drags on and you feel powerless and hopeless when youre lonely in a country where no one likes you and no one wants to be social with you? It eats at your soul, like a slow death to your mind and spirit. Terrible and sad. It slows down your senses and movements as you deteriorate. You can try to deny or suppress loneliness but it doesnt work and will still affect you negatively. Antisocial countries suck like hell. Wish they were erased from existence.

[Winston]

What you mean nobody cares about your loneliness, we all care winston, you know that

Why don't you get yourself a gf or a dog? Dogs are popular option for many lonely people
Being alone makes you feel lonely and depressed and you would get bored being with the same woman. Pick your poison.

Did you think you figured it all out when you started happier abroad? Now its more like depressed abroad.

Dude you are mid 40s and you expecting hot chicks to fall in you lap and you havent done a single pushup in you life

I would never have imagined that you care about me banano. Your posts dont reflect it. Lol

I do have girlfriends, a new one in Philippines and one in China. But im in Taiwan now and alone. I can only suppress and deny the feeling of loneliness for so long, even though i keep myself busy. Its a terrible feeling when you are in a stuck up antisocial country like taiwan where you dont feel loved, accepted or validated. You know how that feels?

The loneliness and rejection slowly eats away at your soul to the point that you feel too weak and depressed to move or pack your bags and get a plane ticket and go to the airport.

It also feels powerless when you cant even make normal friends cause no one likes you or cares about you. And you get nothing but negative bad vibes from everyone, like i do in Taiwan and America.

I told you in another thread about dogs that dogs dont fulfill my needs for companionship or ease my loneliness. Come on. Thats so american. Plus a dog isnt for someone who travels and isnt stable or settled down. Duh. Dont you have any common sense? You always make dumb suggestions.

I am happier abroad, but not in Taiwan. There are always exceptions. Not all overseas countries are great. Some suck too, not just america. I never said all overseas countries are great. But i would say most of the 200 countries of the world are more friendly and open than taiwan and america.

Im in taiwan cause of my parents. They always choose to live in the most antisocial unfriendly countries because they dont need to meet people. Their decisions always f**k up my life, ever since 1981 when we left palo alto, where i was happy and might have had a happy childhood if we hadnt moved. If it wasnt for my parents i wouldn't be visiting taiwan or america and suffering like this. You should know that. My parents sort of act like agents for Murphys Law, a force that tries to give me the opposite of what i want and need.

If only i could get my parents to live in china or friendlier countries. But they are so stubborn and unchangeable. They only alternate between the two worst countries for me, taiwan and america, which are the most unfriendly countries that i hate like hell because those countries hate me too, for no reason. Me and those countries are like oil and water, or lions and hyenas, or superman and kryptonite. They bring out the worst and are toxic, lonely, negative and antisocial.

You know, if a nuclear bomb destroyed taiwan tomorrow, i probably wouldnt feel the slightest bit of sympathy, except maybe for my blood relatives of course. Why would i? Taiwanese dont care about me and dont give a shit about me, so why should i care about them or give a shit about them? Plus taiwanese have no soul or emotion, so they are not even true humans anyway. The deaths of Taiwanese would be like the destruction of robots and mannequins, so they would not be true human casualties anyway. Seriously. No joke. Thats how bad taiwan really is.

[Adama]

So you currently have two girlfriends winston?

[Winston]

So you currently have two girlfriends winston?

Whatever you wanna call it. Ive never met them. They are two potential love interests that i met online. They are both hot and talk to me regularly and seem to like me a lot and want me to visit them asap.

However im reluctant to get my hopes up, given my record with murphys law and bad luck and curses in my love life. Even when i find my soulmate, the universe conspires to break us up. Ive seen it happen and there definitely is some force thats against me, whether you believe it or not. Ive seen it, felt it and experienced it. There are definitely unseen forces in this world, which me and probably most people have experienced.

Plus, women seem to like me more when im at a distance or abroad then when i am with them in their local city. Thats another way that murphys law works in my life.

[Adama]

given my record with murphys law and bad luck and curses in my love life. Even when i find my soulmate, the universe conspires to break us up. Ive seen it happen and there definitely is some force thats against me, whether you believe it or not. Ive seen it, felt it and experienced it. There are definitely unseen forces in this world, which me and probably most people have experienced.

I've also experienced unseen forces. There are some things which I have been prevented from doing with women no matter how determined I was to achieve it. There's one time my friend and his other two friends were tag teaming a girl all night long. I was asleep the entire night and they never thought to wake me up. I woke up and caught them in the act and she saw me. After that though, she treated me as unworthy of her, despite having already serviced the three men I was hanging out with. She also had a boyfriend she was cheating on. (This was a white girl too. Exactly 18 years old, real blond, very cute, nice body, sweet personality, no indicator she was a total whore.)

Unseen forces. I know those.

[gnosis]

Dont you hate how time drags on and you feel powerless and hopeless when youre lonely in a country where no one likes you and no one wants to be social with you? It eats at your soul, like a slow death to your mind and spirit. Terrible and sad. It slows down your senses and movements as you deteriorate. You can try to deny or suppress loneliness but it doesnt work and will still affect you negatively. Antisocial countries suck like hell. Wish they were erased from existence.

I can sympathize with you, Winston. After years living overseas, I am back in the U.S., living with my parents for a while.

I had forgotten how cold and anti-social Americans are and how genuinely creepy American women are.

[Winston]

given my record with murphys law and bad luck and curses in my love life. Even when i find my soulmate, the universe conspires to break us up. Ive seen it happen and there definitely is some force thats against me, whether you believe it or not. Ive seen it, felt it and experienced it. There are definitely unseen forces in this world, which me and probably most people have experienced.

I've also experienced unseen forces. There are some things which I have been prevented from doing with women no matter how determined I was to achieve it. There's one time my friend and his other two friends were tag teaming a girl all night long. I was asleep the entire night and they never thought to wake me up. I woke up and caught them in the act and she saw me. After that though, she treated me as unworthy of her, despite having already serviced the three men I was hanging out with. She also had a boyfriend she was cheating on. (This was a white girl too. Exactly 18 years old, real blond, very cute, nice body, sweet personality, no indicator she was a total whore.)

Unseen forces. I know those.

You mean some girl that you can your friends met was banging your friends all night, but not you? lol. That's happened to me before too. It simply means she's not attracted to you, but she's attracted to them. What does that have to do with unseen forces? Unseen forces is like when you see or sense a hidden hand at work, using selective coincidences that are unusual, to try to ruin your plans or block you. Or when you see things and patterns that randomness and confirmation bias can't explain.

[jamesbond]

After years living overseas, I am back in the U.S., living with my parents for a while.

I had forgotten how cold and anti-social Americans are and how genuinely creepy American women are.

Welcome back to the United States gnosis! Aren't you glad to be back among all the unfriendly American women?

[fschmidt]

Ghost, your immediate path is obvious. Just accept MarcosZeitola's offer and work with him to find your virgin bride. The real challenge comes after you are married. What will you do then?

[droid]

given my record with murphys law and bad luck and curses in my love life. Even when i find my soulmate, the universe conspires to break us up. Ive seen it happen and there definitely is some force thats against me, whether you believe it or not. Ive seen it, felt it and experienced it. There are definitely unseen forces in this world, which me and probably most people have experienced.

I've also experienced unseen forces. There are some things which I have been prevented from doing with women no matter how determined I was to achieve it. There's one time my friend and his other two friends were tag teaming a girl all night long. I was asleep the entire night and they never thought to wake me up. I woke up and caught them in the act and she saw me. After that though, she treated me as unworthy of her, despite having already serviced the three men I was hanging out with. She also had a boyfriend she was cheating on. (This was a white girl too. Exactly 18 years old, real blond, very cute, nice body, sweet personality, no indicator she was a total whore.)

Unseen forces. I know those.

You mean some girl that you can your friends met was banging your friends all night, but not you? lol. That's happened to me before too. It simply means she's not attracted to you, but she's attracted to them. What does that have to do with unseen forces? Unseen forces is like when you see or sense a hidden hand at work, using selective coincidences that are unusual, to try to ruin your plans or block you. Or when you see things and patterns that randomness and confirmation bias can't explain.

That's one of the most toxic, soul crushing experiences a man could have, one more reason to get out of those countries. It's diabolical Winston, that's why adama talks about darker forces there. I've watched plenty of porn in my life but to actually see that happen and be denyied it simultaneoulsy must be beyond words.

When i was working in the states a few years ago i had this girl back in the warehouse eye me a few times and what not, and we said hi a few times. She had a tattoo covering her back but i was willing to overlook that since i was obviously desperate enough, so i kept thinking about making more conversation and possibly getting to know this nice girl.

Long story short i was told not to go for her, as she had already been gangbanged by four black thugs from the warehouse in one of their parties. I was obviously stumped. Could be a rumour from cock-blockers or what not but knowing the environment in Florida i gave it credit.

Anyways glad to be 10000 miles from all that bullshit

[cdnFA]

Also, women are women. I recently discovered that a guy I know had married Chinese women f**k him. Several. And that kind of thing makes me paranoid, especially with women who hide things really well. These women would probably never initiate a divorce or otherwise break up their families because of face. But commit adultery in secret? That's fine as long as you don't cause loss of face. Something to carefully consider for anyone interested in Asian women.

Let us assume he is telling the truth and he very well may be.

1: What sort of numbers are we talking about here. Doesn't mean all married girls crave the strange or even most or even many, you just need a few to get lucky. Probably are in more danger from local traffic and depending on where in China pollution than having a girl cheat on you.
2: You don't know the guys these girls are married to. Are they the 15 hours 7 day a week type at work? Have they checked out emotionally? More likely are they cheating on their wives left right and center with mistresses, 2nd wives and generic sluts? Do they use their wives as punching bags? Are you planning on doing any of these things? Or maybe they are all cunts, but if you want to avoid all risk what are you doing in China.
3: I wouldn't be so quick to assume they wouldn't initiate a divorce. Divorce rates are rising pretty fast, if you are looking at a 20 something I wouldn't count on Face protecting you unless you call the A Team in which case Face, Murdock, BA and Hannibal might help out.

[gnosis]

I've also experienced unseen forces. There are some things which I have been prevented from doing with women no matter how determined I was to achieve it. There's one time my friend and his other two friends were tag teaming a girl all night long. I was asleep the entire night and they never thought to wake me up. I woke up and caught them in the act and she saw me. After that though, she treated me as unworthy of her, despite having already serviced the three men I was hanging out with. She also had a boyfriend she was cheating on. (This was a white girl too. Exactly 18 years old, real blond, very cute, nice body, sweet personality, no indicator she was a total whore.)

Unseen forces. I know those.

You routinely belittle other sexually frustrated men, so I have to say you had it coming. It makes perfect sense to me that something like this would happen to you.

[Ghost]

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