Winston, thank you for the kind message and the compliments. Since we are being honest, I will like to tell you why I haven't left America. I could have left in 2010, but I made some mistakes. I was breaking up with my Mexican girlfriend and she went to Spain and had a job there. Like a dumb ass, I didn't want to move there. I helped her out with her shit. I never had problems with her. Best girlfriend I ever had. Cooked, cleaned, f***ed me well, f***ed me whenever I wanted, etc. I just didn't want to go to Spain. I regret a lot of things about my decisions.Winston wrote:Wow I thought I was the only one here who admitted his insecurities and doubts. Congrats on your honesty Phoenix.
Technically, you have nothing to worry about though. There are racist people in every country, but there are always certain segments of women there who have a fetish for black guys. That's even true in America.
Several black guys I met in Angeles City told me they did great there, but I didn't know them well enough to know how sincere they were though. A lot of guys there are big talkers with big egos, so you never know.
Taiwanese girls are flaky. That's why the one you talked to online just disappeared. That happened to me too. Lots of guys in Taiwan, even young tall handsome Taiwanese guys, told me that they had the same problem with girls suddenly flaking out on them. I guess the narcissistic superficial American culture got to the girls there, it seems. Very unfortunate. But China is still relatively untainted by Western culture.
When I was in Baguio, Philippines, at the mall there I saw this tall hot Korean girl with a black guy. I was stunned. I wish I could have taken a photo to show you guys. lol
Phoenix, you are a good writer. Why don't you start a blog and put ads on it to monetize it? You can easily start one on Blogger or Wordpress for free.
Like I said in another thread, why don't you forget about all those surgeries you wanted to get, and just save up some money for a plane ticket first? Those surgeries are expensive in the US. You can get them done in Europe for cheaper, or Canada maybe. Just get a temp job through Kelly Services, Express Personnel or Manpower. They have plenty of temp jobs available. Or look for more freelance projects online at all those links I posted in that other thread. Just save up $2000 and you're set to go. You could even do a minimum wage job and save up that amount in two months. Just go live with your parents or relatives while you're doing it. Then you're set to go and be "happier abroad". Once abroad, you can teach English or something. You can also work as an editor for overseas newspapers or magazines in English.
Btw, do employers in the US still discriminate against black people, even in the liberal modern America? Or is that a thing of the past?
Best wishes to you Phoenix.
Surgeries:
I am going to hold off on the laser hair removal. I have been shaving my head since I was 17 (2001) and it is not really a hassle, so I can hold off on this. I do want LASIK and a vasectomy. These two things must happen. I love wearing contacts, but you can only wear them for so many hours.
Blogging:
I have about 300 blogs over the years that I wrote online on my hard drive. It is not like I can't write everyday. I don't want to juggle the blog and the freelance job all at once. I may move up a level with my current writing job and I won't have much time to blog because moving up a level requires me to do more writing. I am planning on writing novels in eBook format in the future too. I just need to get a better writing job that pays good wages, so I can have time. I can write 5 blogs a day and not even sweat, but writing is too time consuming. I wish I could do it all.
Employment:
I had a hard time working brick and mortar jobs. I only had 2 brick and mortar jobs and they were both temporary. I went to vocational school and from there on, I was unemployed for years. I would still be in Tucson, AZ if I didn't find this Australian girl's blog about freelance writing in 2009. She saved my life and I told her that too. I don't see any discrimination as far as race, but don't laugh...I see experience discrimination. Okay, I don't have any experience because I can't get a job. No one will hire me. The kicker is: You need a job to gain experience, but you can't get a job without experience. f***ing catch 22s!
2013:
This is my time frame to leave America (if I am lucky). I just want to save a lot of money. I am a paranoid person and I am very cautious. I don't want any "What ifs." I just have to job hunt a lot more aggressive this year than ever before. I am just about done with this country.
To all of the other men that have commented on this thread:
Thank you! I am not worried about this shit anymore. I know who I am and I know what I want. I know I can succeed anywhere in the world because I have advantages that many people don't have. I am making a new thread about this decision I made. All of you have really made me inspired. I like to write out my problems sometimes and it is nice to get some encouraging comments. I am just frustrated with my current state (job mostly). I wish I had a million dollars, so I can do my personal shit and just get on a plane and dip out.
I hope all the men that are active on this forum can change their lives in 2012-2013. I am ready to be happier abroad (for real). I am pretty much at the finish line in America. I have seen it all. There is nothing else I see happening here.
