I've been hesitating to make this post; I wanted to know if it was real. We all have good days and bad days. Some days the world seems bright and we feel hopeful. Other days we feel despair. However what Iíve been experiencing lately has been so consistent day to day itís been nothing but an encouragement and I want to share it with the community here.
Iím sure many of us question the validity of our plight. We are in a constant struggle of fighting for what we believe is right in our hearts and comfort/conformity. In an attempt to get fresh perspective, I deleted my facebook about a month ago; as a result, my social life HAS suffered. I willfully disconnected myself from friends Iíve had since high school. These friends donít call me otherwise, which only confirms to me that ďrelationshipsĒ on facebook are 99% ego driven and 1% reality. Due to the lack of social interaction, my world has been much ďsimplerĒ the last month. Iíve gotten a chance to really work hard on my studies and write some music; itís been a healing experience. But the greatest things Iíve discovered since quitting facebook has been the realization of how sick everyone around me is. The more you remove yourself from a culture, the less you relate to it.
I have hung out with a few of my friends (the oneís that actually still text me) since I deleted it. I went out with my friend Eric to the bar the other day. When I talked about social life in America and how feminism is destroying things here he basically went out to just attempt to show me philosophically how I was wrong and should conform. I spent some time with my friend Will the other day. Will refuses to let me talk about certain things. He literally stops me when I talk about the 3 most important topics in my life: how much I canít stand America, how much I canít stand American women, and spiritual/metaphysical experiences. On top of that that, he has his smart phone on him at all times and is constantly commenting on the world inside his little device rather than the face to face communication heís experiencing in the present. Almost everyone I meet tells me Iím wrong when I tell them why I want to move overseas.
The Law Of Your Heart
I donít care how wrong I am. I donít care who agrees with me or disagrees with me. Iíve reached a stage in life where the power of MY will is the most important thing to me. This is a difficult place to reach as most of us donít know who we are without the mirror of friends and peers to confirm/deny our plight; itís basic sociology/psychology. Also, when your ego is in check, the world really opens up to you; you stop doing things to please others and do things because you know they are the best for you. There is very little stopping any of us here from living the best life imaginable. Going overseas, living inexpensively, and getting respect from others are all things that are widely available to us as Americans regardless of the spin that our family/friends/media puts on them.
Itís difficult to treat yourself with the utmost respect as you would someone else, but I urge you to try it. Itís difficult to disassociate and regard yourself as someone who deserves happiness, but the more you check your ego at the door, the more you will learn to follow the law of your heart.
Your will, your heart, YOU determine the best path for you. Donít let anyone confuse that for you. The answer is literally a door that you have to walk through, but many will convince you to not open the door.