The demons I am talking about are a metaphor for an unfortunate series of events that started with a certain someone wanting to take the stupidest form of revenge against me, and ended with me having enough of the life I was having in London. I spent years devoured by rage, despair and frustration, and it hasn't been easy to regain a measure of objectivity.Winston wrote: ↑October 2nd, 2021, 4:32 pmIf that's so then my spiritual immune system must be faulty. As well as some filtering mechanism in my mind that others have that can filter our interruptions and noises.
If you have had your fair share of demons (inner or outer) as well as dark forces and murphy's law and nasty tricks of the universe too, then you should be able to relate to me right? Why then did you act like you could not relate or understand me before?
Once that objectivity was regained, though, I couldn't help but admit to myself that I couldn't blame this "certain someone" for all the twists my life took, from that point on. I had to take full responsibility for what happened to me and the choices I made, whether they were justified at the moment or not, whether they were objectively good or bad, and make the most out of it.
Occam's razor fell on my abstruse theory of what happened and why. It was much simpler than that. For how complicated an existence can be, every life is always a string of choices and their consequences, which lead to other choices. Every step of the journey is a direct function of the previous, and will influence the next.
In other words, the turning point in my life, my "defeating the demons" if you want to put it that way, was when I woke up and realised that there have never been any demons flying low above my head, pulling strings. It's always been me, and forever will be. I was driving a car, someone tried to bump me out. They didn't succeed because the impact was too strong. They succeeded because I took my hands off the wheel and let the car move around without my control, for a good while.
Dark spiritual forces exist and they do conspire against humanity, perhaps through key individuals, families, or elite communities. Yet, at the microscopic level, at the personal level, we are and should be firmly in control of our own cars, no matter how hard events try to bump us out of track. It's not easy and you and I failed many times. Yet, that doesn't mean we shouldn't keep trying, or learn to be more successful at doing it.
Well, based on what I just said, no. It's all in our head.Winston wrote: ↑October 2nd, 2021, 4:32 pmSo you've noticed too that the universe seems to be a trickster, like the trickster gods that ancient cultures talked about, like the Babylonians? It loves to set you up and then pull the rug from under you, as if it loved to f**k with your head. Or give you false hope to set you up for disappointment, even when nothing could have gone wrong. I think everyone experiences that to some degree. Most guys here do not like to admit it though.
