Nice poem. I'd express sympathy but I rather suspect you would consider it unnecessary.Let's itemize
Instead here is a tantric joke
Martin went to the doctor. "Doctor, I've lived a virtuous life. I have avoided booze, drugs, sex all my life, I go to bed by ten, excercise regularly and don't do anything in excess. Yet now I am feeling stressed, tense and uneasy. What is wrong?"
The doctor asks, "How old are you Martin?"
"seventy three" comes the reply.
So he advises Martin to go visit the hot springs and try to relax a little.
Martin makes it to the hot springs and settles down in one pool. A really old looking, worn down wrinkled guy gets in next to him. Feeling good in comparisson Martin struck up a conversation. "What is your story", he asked.
"Aah", replied the old looking fellow, "I've had the most amazing life. When I was eighteen my culture told me to go out and do whatever I want and get all the sex and booze I could get. Why settle for one woman when I could have a new one every week?. So that is what I have been doing. Wine, woman and song all the time, every time".
"Why that is amazing" exclaims Martin. "How old are you?"
"I am twenty four" comes the reply.
Tantra says repression is suicidal. But so in indulgence.
The first four stanzas of the poem could have been part of a Disney story and the poem could have been written by a Christian. Oddly enough, given which forum this is, this discussion reveals some of the wisdom of calvinist puritan america. The loss of innocence at Puberty is The story of Genesis - adam and eve in the garden of eden. In the Christian interpretation, since we all have to go through this process of loss of innocence built into our inherent nature it must be because of some 'original sin'.
In Disneyland Mickey and Minnie never age, they remain in the innocence of childhood. They are a couple but there is no sex. The energy of sex is tranmuted to build the civilization - like finding cures for diseases for example. Just take a look at the improvement in general public health over the last fifty years not just in America but all over the world. Leprosy - gone! Small pox - gone! Polio - gone! Vitamins - a staple of everyone's diet.
So what to do about sex? Even the calvinists were not stupid enough to try to crush it completely. It was relatively fine within the context of marriage and family, though with the judgement about its sinful nature there were the seeds of repression.
Tantra says to avoid this judgment to start. Neither be for sex nor against it. Neither be for beauty nor against it. Let sex be a natural thing and be a witness. Through your witnessing you see sex for what it is and come to transcendence; through your transcedence you come to love and meditation.
It is hard to say that it is the puritanism alone that is the source of some of the laments on this forum. In that framework at least everyone would be married at a reasonable time; people would be tending to their families.
Instead it seems to be the total breakdown of all values arising out of post modernism and the consequent elevation of sex above everything else that seems to be the source. When all the values have been crushed what comes in the empty space are our harsh darwinian instincts. Survival of the fittest, eveyone in competition with everyone else, pick up and game instead of courtship and love.