Nailer wrote:It's more about maintaining the fake enthusiasm and high energy, and saying boring predictable things that make me look cool, all the while knowing that the minute I start liking her or feeling happy, it's over. No, I don't spend money.
So it's like:
-Act fake and enthusiastic about nothing.
-Extract whatever enjoyment I can, while knowing it will be cut off at any moment, for no reason.
-Try not to show I am enjoying myself, and never let my guard down, because that is grounds for immediate goodbye.
No, I don't do stupid shit like get too clingy or tell her I love her. It's the walking on eggshells and unpredictability that I hate. It seems like one wrong little move, or one little thing she takes the wrong way, and you're immediately gone. So it's hard for me to care enough to bother in the first place.
Acting completely distant and fake with someone I am naked in bed with does not feel natural to me.
That is exactly how all men feel with almost all women. Until or if you find one that you don't have to do that with. After I don't know how many women I have slept with, what u say is spot on. I never doubted any would not involve this bs. But hey I'm an optimist and am enjoying myself now.
I would do it every 2 weeks to empty my balls. Until it was not worth the effort. Now my balls get emptied
Just stay positive. It may be a long wait.