HA didn't solve all of my problems, just some of them

[Lucas88]

After reading all of this, I honestly can't really fault you for hating your own, I just don't see you in the same light as the white guilt white people who hate themselves because they feel responsible for all the negro bullshit and slavery. Those whites I honestly hate to death and wish they would just kill themselves already. I mean trying to flood your own nation full of blacks like a f***ing idiot isn't going to make your country better, if anything they'll make the place WORSE. I strongly hate blacks, but not my family members.

Yes, I don't hate my home country out of guilt for slavery or historical atrocities committed against Negros. That would just be silly because no White person alive today had a part in any of that. Besides, Britain was the first country to abolish slavery in 1807. The country also took in many Blacks from its former colonies in the Caribbean since the 70s. People here shouldn't feel guilty about anything.

I don't even wish for anything bad to happen to the UK. I want every country to prosper and for life to be better for people everywhere. I don't harbor any real hatred towards British people. I simply recognize that the place isn't for me, that it doesn't suit my personality, that I don't feel compatible with its culture, and that I'm better off elsewhere, mostly in the Mediterranean world or Latin America. The UK might be perfectly okay for certain personality types but it doesn't mesh well with me on a personal level. I don't want the UK to be destroyed or lose its culture; I'd just rather have been born elsewhere in a country more suited to my tastes and needs and would prefer to move overseas again as soon as I have the opportunity.

I'm more angry with destiny for determining my birth into a culture that really doesn't suit me than with the country itself. The people here are simply products of the culture which they were born into. It would make no sense to hate them.

The thing is Latin Americans are just overly prideful people so of course your ex would not understand why you don't like British people or your country.

I don't know whether this is strictly a Latin American thing. I've met people of other ethnicities who are simply unable to fathom how somebody could ever hate their own country or culture and I've conversely encountered Latin Americans who understand my dislike for the Anglo world and even share it. Not all Mexicans and other Latinos regard the US as a bastion of light for the whole world to imitate. Some really distrust the US and consider it a bad influence and a threat to traditional Latin American culture. Others think that "gringos" are just plain weird. Lol!

Even my ex-girlfriend initially held a negative view of the Anglo world. She told me that she regarded the British as warmongering savages and weirdos and that she had never imagined dating an "inglés". I was, according to her, simply different to the rest, much nicer and more "normal" than any of the British people who she had previously crossed paths with. And that's true - I'm nothing like a typical British person and have a much more Mediterranean disposition, especially when I'm speaking Spanish. However, my ex-girlfriend got to know me more and met my family, she developed an interest in the UK and started trying to get me to like its culture despite knowing that I hated it. At one point she even got it into her head that she wanted us to live in the UK for a year or two before we moved to Latin America because she wanted to get to know the place. She was disappointed when I told her that I didn't ever want to move back there and that was when I began to doubt my relationship with her for the first time. I wasn't willing to sacrifice my HA dream for what a girlfriend wanted.

Now I don't see myself ever having a serious relationship with anybody else, not even with a Latina. I don't feel comfortable with my own nationality, don't want to be some girl's "English boyfriend", don't want to share "British culture" with anybody, and am not willing to compromise my own principles. Instead I'll walk a lonely path, limit my interactions with women to brief sexual encounters and have a few baby mamas in Colombia. Even if one day I do desire a real relationship, I doubt that I'll be capable of maintaining one. I'm just too phobic of my own birth culture and somewhat dysfunctional as a result.

[Lucas88]

1. Autism and neurological problems

Even though in Spain people are much more accepting of those with autistic traits and quirky behavior and I felt included for the first time in my life, the improvement of my social skills was a gradual process (now made possible by a more inclusive social environment) and I still had to deal with autism-related problems such as mental fatigue, sensory overload, OCD-type thought patterns, dysprosody and anxiety. My botched neurological makeup has always held me back in life and caused me various difficulties. Going abroad to a more open and fertile social climate might have helped me improve but it certainly didn't remove my developmental disorder. That was just a bitter pill that I had to swallow.

Try PharmaGaba,try a PEMF brainwave device,Binaural beats from hemisync,or just neurofeedback LENS..you have money unlike me.you have no excuse to continue to suffer from this.

Thank you, my friend!

I want to look into ways of curing or reducing the symptoms of autism. I too believe that the autism epidemic and various other common neurological dysfunctions are the result of the increase of neurotoxins since the 90s in the form of harmful vaccines, pesticides, heavy metal poisoning and unsafe pharmaceuticals taken during pregnancy among other things. I've been looking into this topic recently and would like to find a remedy for my own autistic symptoms. Psilocybin helps but the effects are only temporary in my experience. I've also read about chlorine dioxide as a possible method of cleansing the gut and thereby curing autism. If I remember correctly, you also mentioned it in a post of yours, brother.

I don't trust the Jew-run medical establishment. They push their bogus science to try to convince us that their vaccines are safe and that there is no link to autism but digging a little deeper will reveal otherwise. They also claim that autism can't be cured and even seek to normalize it just as they are now doing with all kinds of pathological behaviors but I don't believe anything they say and instead would like to explore any possible remedies which are being offered by doctors outside of the mainstream. I want to improve my speech, achieve normal social functioning and reduce my anxiety and OCD-type thinking, just like how I was able to do temporarily after taking psilocybin or Ayahuasca.

I hate what the Jew-run medical establishment is doing to the younger generations. They're messing us up real bad with all of their harmful vaccines and what today passes for "medicine", all in the midst of an already severely contaminated world with hidden poisons and destructive neurotoxins absolutely everywhere. Our world is now an absolute cesspool, all because of the evil elites who have ruined it.

Dude,Blonde guys are smoking hot and many women all over the world dream of a blonde angel as a husband or BF.it's all in your head.You believe the absolute exists,do you think he makes people or whole races and phenotypes ugly?

I'm a goodlooking olive skinned mediterenneanish/middle easternish/Iberianish dude and I don't derive happiness from that.it won't change one bit of your life.

It's not just in my head. Spanish women didn't use to find me attractive and would even tell me that I was too pale but since taking Melanotan and becoming super tanned even Iberian girls as well as Latinas consistently tell me that I'm handsome and even complement my awesome tan. Iberian girls and even many Latinas prefer a White guy who is tanned rather than just weirdly pale.

Yes brother, I completely recognize the Caucasian privilege which exists in the area of international dating, as unfair as it may be. However, in my experience, the kind of White guys who have the upper hand are those who have distinctively Caucasian facial features but who can tan easily and therefore appear like a sexy beach hunk. Think of studs like Arnold Schwarzenegger or some handsome Italian with very European face yet beautiful sun-kissed olive skin at the same time.

If a guy is tanned but has the facial features of an Indian or an Arab, he'll most likely be seen as an unattractive "darkie" by most European and other types of women. If, however, a guy is tanned and has a European face, he'll be sought after as a sexy dark-haired stud. I think that the desire for European men has to do with more than just skin complexion. It has a lot to do with facial aesthetics, height and body type too.

I remember that even Roosh regarded the Mediterranean phenotype as the most desired male phenotype with the Nordic one being second. I observe this too. I believe that being a European with good tanning genetics and beautiful sun-kissed olive skin confers the greatest advantage.

You're gonna be good,man.it is the final destination of all sentient beings to reach the absolute,I call him Allaah or the first,some call him 'paramaShiva'othrs the ankh...but the absolute encompasses and takes all.So just see this life as a test and a theatre.everything has blessing potential,we just have to with God's help-take the blessing energy from it.

I thought for years that if I just became friends with my ex,i would be full happy.it happened like I wanted after almost a decade right when I let go of it,and It doesn't affect me much.You return to your base state whenever you get what you want.during the last day of my trip to miami,I became depressed bcause that was my default state,despite my joyride there for a week.That's just how it is.find a inner and lasting happiness,work out your issues.

maybe seek talk therapy.You cna learn alot from Shaykh Hamza yusuf on youtube and Sufism and kashmir shaivism in general.

take what you see as coinciding with your heart,and leave the rest.

And I care about you brother,and we love you on this site.We wish the best for you and we really love and look up to you.

stay blessed

-Benjamin

Thank you for your advice, brother Benjamin. You're a really good guy too and I always enjoy reading your posts and insights. I wish you many blessings too!

Your friend Lucas

[Lucas88]

@Lucas88

Nowhere is perfect, but at least you have eliminated most of your problems by moving abroad.
That is what I am planning to do, when I build up my income streams.

Believe it or not, many Koreans are going happier abroad and building their lives there, because even they can't stand their own country. Their country is also going down. Just like you can't stand your country. I know the UK is also going down the toilet economically and things are getting more bad there too.

Yes, the HA option did indeed solve most of my problems. Only a few which I weren't able to solve through normal means remained. Some of those required special intervention such as the Melanotan thing. Others continue to be simply unsolvable since they are by their very nature outside of my control and determined by destiny itself, hence my frustration with the metaphysical processes that determined them.

I still want to get out of dodge before the shit hits the proverbial fan in Western Europe and escape to a more peripheral country even if it's considered "thirdworld" and has a simpler way of life. I sincerely hope that you too are soon able to achieve the same, my friend.

By the way, people, "firstworld" countries are often overrated. Most of them are just industrial beehives that offer material abundance but almost nothing in terms of human connection and quality of life. Living in a so-called "thirdworld" country isn't bad at all if you have a decent stream of income. You just have to learn how to live with less material luxuries and how to adapt to a more simple way of life but at the same time you gain a lot more in terms of human connection and general wellbeing. This is the reason why I prefer most of Latin America over the US, UK or Japan despite its "thirdworld" status.

[Natural_Born_Cynic]

@Lucas88

Nowhere is perfect, but at least you have eliminated most of your problems by moving abroad.
That is what I am planning to do, when I build up my income streams.

Believe it or not, many Koreans are going happier abroad and building their lives there, because even they can't stand their own country. Their country is also going down. Just like you can't stand your country. I know the UK is also going down the toilet economically and things are getting more bad there too.

Yes, the HA option did indeed solve most of my problems. Only a few which I weren't able to solve through normal means remained. Some of those required special intervention such as the Melanotan thing. Others continue to be simply unsolvable since they are by their very nature outside of my control and determined by destiny itself, hence my frustration with the metaphysical processes that determined them.

I still want to get out of dodge before the shit hits the proverbial fan in Western Europe and escape to a more peripheral country even if it's considered "thirdworld" and has a simpler way of life. I sincerely hope that you too are soon able to achieve the same, my friend.

By the way, people, "firstworld" countries are often overrated. Most of them are just industrial beehives that offer material abundance but almost nothing in terms of human connection and quality of life. Living in a so-called "thirdworld" country isn't bad at all if you have a decent stream of income. You just have to learn how to live with less material luxuries and how to adapt to a more simple life but at the same time you gain a lot more in terms of human connection and general wellbeing. This is the reason why I prefer most of Latin America over the US, UK or Japan despite its "thirdworld" status.

I thank you for your encouragement. I want to escape America too and live in more friendly country. You don't have to settle for third world countries. There are many second world, developing, middle to high income countries still out there. There is Portugal, Costa Rica, Panama, Malta, Ireland, the Baltics, the Balkans, Malaysia, Liechtenstein, etc.

Your also right. First world countries are pretty much overrated industrial hive minds. You get up, go to work, face commute in between, go home, watch bloody Netflix or surf Social Media, sleep, rinse and repeat. No wonder many Americans and even Britons are into Drugs, Alcohol, and conspicuous consumption. Life is unbearable for them. Depression is all time high.

[WanderingProtagonist]

After reading all of this, I honestly can't really fault you for hating your own, I just don't see you in the same light as the white guilt white people who hate themselves because they feel responsible for all the negro bullshit and slavery. Those whites I honestly hate to death and wish they would just kill themselves already. I mean trying to flood your own nation full of blacks like a f***ing idiot isn't going to make your country better, if anything they'll make the place WORSE. I strongly hate blacks, but not my family members.

Yes, I don't hate my home country out of guilt for slavery or historical atrocities committed against Negros. That would just be silly because no White person alive today had a part in any of that. Besides, Britain was the first country to abolish slavery in 1807. The country also took in many Blacks from its former colonies in the Caribbean since the 70s. People here shouldn't feel guilty about anything.

I don't even wish for anything bad to happen to the UK. I want every country to prosper and for life to be better for people everywhere. I don't harbor any real hatred towards British people. I simply recognize that the place isn't for me, that it doesn't suit my personality, that I don't feel compatible with its culture, and that I'm better off elsewhere, mostly in the Mediterranean world or Latin America. The UK might be perfectly okay for certain personality types but it doesn't mesh well with me on a personal level. I don't want the UK to be destroyed or lose its culture; I'd just rather have been born elsewhere in a country more suited to my tastes and needs and would prefer to move overseas again as soon as I have the opportunity.

I'm more angry with destiny for determining my birth into a culture that really doesn't suit me than with the country itself. The people here are simply products of the culture which they were born into. It would make no sense to hate them.

The thing is Latin Americans are just overly prideful people so of course your ex would not understand why you don't like British people or your country.

I don't know whether this is strictly a Latin American thing. I've met people of other ethnicities who are simply unable to fathom how somebody could ever hate their own country or culture and I've conversely encountered Latin Americans who understand my dislike for the Anglo world and even share it. Not all Mexicans and other Latinos regard the US as a bastion of light for the whole world to imitate. Some really distrust the US and consider it a bad influence and a threat to traditional Latin American culture. Others think that "gringos" are just plain weird. Lol!

Even my ex-girlfriend initially held a negative view of the Anglo world. She told me that she regarded the British as warmongering savages and weirdos and that she had never imagined dating an "inglés". I was, according to her, simply different to the rest, much nicer and more "normal" than any of the British people who she had previously crossed paths with. And that's true - I'm nothing like a typical British person and have a much more Mediterranean disposition, especially when I'm speaking Spanish. However, my ex-girlfriend got to know me more and met my family, she developed an interest in the UK and started trying to get me to like its culture despite knowing that I hated it. At one point she even got it into her head that she wanted us to live in the UK for a year or two before we moved to Latin America because she wanted to get to know the place. She was disappointed when I told her that I didn't ever want to move back there and that was when I began to doubt my relationship with her for the first time. I wasn't willing to sacrifice my HA dream for what a girlfriend wanted.

Now I don't see myself ever having a serious relationship with anybody else, not even with a Latina. I don't feel comfortable with my own nationality, don't want to be some girl's "English boyfriend", don't want to share "British culture" with anybody, and am not willing to compromise my own principles. Instead I'll walk a lonely path, limit my interactions with women to brief sexual encounters and have a few baby mamas in Colombia. Even if one day I do desire a real relationship, I doubt that I'll be capable of maintaining one. I'm just too phobic of my own birth culture and somewhat dysfunctional as a result.

I'm with you on that part about not wanting to be some woman's product. Seriously I use to be way into a lot of porn but all the interracial stuff made me hate both blacks and whites to the extreme. For starters I feel like white women only hook up with black men for fetish reasons and because they get something out of humiliating their own white men. I've asked plenty of guys why do women purposely date men who get off on cuckoldry or have a cuck fetish...I thought women hated those type of men but yet loads of white bitches are married to such men that watch them f**k other men so I distrust white women more than any other ethnicity of woman. I know that I feel disconnected from the West. I don't know if there is anywhere else for me to go and start over like you did in Spain. I feel like I'm stuck here where I am and that bothers me because I don't want to be stuck here. I just don't have the health or financial means to go abroad.

[Lucas88]

I thank you for your encouragement. I want to escape America too and live in more friendly country. You don't have to settle for third world countries. There are many second world, developing, middle to high income countries still out there. There is Portugal, Costa Rica, Panama, Malta, Ireland, the Baltics, the Balkans, Malaysia, Liechtenstein, etc.

Your also right. First world countries are pretty much overrated industrial hive minds. You get up, go to work, face commute in between, go home, watch bloody Netflix or surf Social Media, sleep, rinse and repeat. No wonder many Americans and even Britons are into Drugs, Alcohol, and conspicuous consumption. Life is unbearable for them. Depression is all time high.

Yes, there are many countries that now offer a decent standard of living and a much better way of life for those who are adventurous and willing to adapt to a new culture. The Balkan and Baltic states fall into this category. Western European countries like Spain and Portugal too if you have your own location-independent source of income. Even many "thirdworld" countries aren't that bad. You can live pretty well in many parts of Mexico, Colombia or Peru if you bring your own money (wages in those countries are low) and live in a decent neighborhood. I personally don't mind the lower level of material development or the simpler way of life as long as where I live isn't a complete shithole.

I believe that the consumerist lifestyle of developed nations is greatly overrated and doesn't create true happiness. Conversely, I think that people may be happiest when their society hits a certain "sweet spot" in which the people have enough material wealth to live comfortably but at the same time don't have a morbid obsession with acquiring ever more and consuming for consumption's own sake. In light of this realization, I absolutely can't stand the US way of life, middle-class UK or the industrial beehive dystopias of East Asia despite all of these being touted as the pinnacle of modern progress. Instead I'd much rather have a simpler and less materially wealthy but more socially fulfilling life in Spain, Colombia or some other similar country. There are many potentially good HA locations if you aren't materialistic and are okay with living a Spartan lifestyle.

I also understand your point with regard to drugs, alcohol and conspicuous consumption. Some people talk as though drugs, alcohol and other vices were a "moral issue" but I think that in many cases people are simply drawn to those things due to the soulless and soul-crushing modern lifestyle of materialism that has been imposed upon them. They seek their own quick and cheap escapism as the need for quick and cheap escapism is built into the fabric of this kind of society. I'm actually opposed to drug and alcohol use, by the way. I think that the current state of affairs which you've accurately described is tragic.

[Lucas88]

I'm with you on that part about not wanting to be some woman's product. Seriously I use to be way into a lot of porn but all the interracial stuff made me hate both blacks and whites to the extreme. For starters I feel like white women only hook up with black men for fetish reasons and because they get something out of humiliating their own white men. I've asked plenty of guys why do women purposely date men who get off on cuckoldry or have a cuck fetish...I thought women hated those type of men but yet loads of white bitches are married to such men that watch them f**k other men so I distrust white women more than any other ethnicity of woman.

I personally wouldn't mind if a Latina simply preferred European men for aesthetic reasons just like how I have a preference for Latinas and would be more than happy to oblige if a Latina wanted me to sleep with her for my European phenotype. However, I absolutely wouldn't ever want to date a Latina or any other kind of foreign girl for that matter who specifically wanted a British boyfriend or an Anglophone lover simply out of an obsession with British culture (I surprisingly learned that there actually exist Anglophiles - can you believe that?) or for the purpose of English practice. That is because I myself don't like British culture or my own nationality and don't want to be some clapping monkey for the satisfaction of some Anglophile girl's fetish. Yuck!

There are many girls like I've described above in Japan and other East Asian countries. In Japan such girls are called "gaijin hunters" (although male versions of these exist too) and they purposely hang out with foreign exchange students and look for an Anglo boyfriend or White guys to hook up with in order to satisfy their White fever, often with the added benefit of free English practice which is sometimes the main goal. I always found such gaijin hunters utterly disgusting when I was in Japan. Their desire to date just about any Anglo guy just for being Anglo was so off-putting and their near-idolatrous worship of everything American or "Western" was totally cringe. I hated those kind of Japanese people. I did everything to avoid them.

Many guys don't understand this way of thinking. They assume that it would be great to be fetishized by a bunch of Asian girls for their race alone and ask how we could ever be unhappy with such easy spoils. But for me at least I really don't feel any genuine connection to my own nationality and so the idea of a girl liking me exclusively for it greatly repels me. I also find it difficult to act in accordance with British stereotypes since I'm not much of a British soul myself and feel completely out of sync with British ways.

I know that I feel disconnected from the West. I don't know if there is anywhere else for me to go and start over like you did in Spain. I feel like I'm stuck here where I am and that bothers me because I don't want to be stuck here. I just don't have the health or financial means to go abroad.

As for your own potential HA locations, maybe a European country with a more affordable cost of living and a rich culture and history like those of the Balkans would be ideal. Didn't you say that you was interested in Romania?

If you don't want to live in a country with a different language, you could always look into some place like Samoa, Fiji, Tonga or some other relatively obscure Pacific island nation where a light-skinned Black guy like yourself would fit in from an aesthetic standpoint and where there are few or no "nigs" as you call them. Just some ideas that came to me. I've heard that those countries have very few gays or trannies too, so you'd probably like them just fine!

I sincerely wish you well for your health and financial success and for you to one day find a HA location that is suitable for you.

[WanderingProtagonist]

I'm with you on that part about not wanting to be some woman's product. Seriously I use to be way into a lot of porn but all the interracial stuff made me hate both blacks and whites to the extreme. For starters I feel like white women only hook up with black men for fetish reasons and because they get something out of humiliating their own white men. I've asked plenty of guys why do women purposely date men who get off on cuckoldry or have a cuck fetish...I thought women hated those type of men but yet loads of white bitches are married to such men that watch them f**k other men so I distrust white women more than any other ethnicity of woman.

I personally wouldn't mind if a Latina simply preferred European men for aesthetic reasons just like how I have a preference for Latinas and would be more than happy to oblige if a Latina wanted me to sleep with her for my European phenotype. However, I absolutely wouldn't ever want to date a Latina or any other kind of foreign girl for that matter who specifically wanted a British boyfriend or an Anglophone lover simply out of an obsession with British culture (I surprisingly learned that there actually exist Anglophiles - can you believe that?) or for the purpose of English practice. That is because I myself don't like British culture or my own nationality and don't want to be some clapping monkey for the satisfaction of some Anglophile girl's fetish. Yuck!

There are many girls like I've described above in Japan and other East Asian countries. In Japan such girls are called "gaijin hunters" (although male versions of these exist too) and they purposely hang out with foreign exchange students and look for an Anglo boyfriend or White guys to hook up with in order to satisfy their White fever, often with the added benefit of free English practice which is sometimes the main goal. I always found such gaijin hunters utterly disgusting when I was in Japan. Their desire to date just about any Anglo guy just for being Anglo was so off-putting and their near-idolatrous worship of everything American or "Western" was totally cringe. I hated those kind of Japanese people. I did everything to avoid them.

Many guys don't understand this way of thinking. They assume that it would be great to be fetishized by a bunch of Asian girls for their race alone and ask how we could ever be unhappy with such easy spoils. But for me at least I really don't feel any genuine connection to my own nationality and so the idea of a girl liking me exclusively for it greatly repels me. I also find it difficult to act in accordance with British stereotypes since I'm not much of a British soul myself and feel completely out of sync with British ways.

I know that I feel disconnected from the West. I don't know if there is anywhere else for me to go and start over like you did in Spain. I feel like I'm stuck here where I am and that bothers me because I don't want to be stuck here. I just don't have the health or financial means to go abroad.

As for your own potential HA locations, maybe a European country with a more affordable cost of living and a rich culture and history like those of the Balkans would be ideal. Didn't you say that you was interested in Romania?

If you don't want to live in a country with a different language, you could always look into some place like Samoa, Fiji, Tonga or some other relatively obscure Pacific island nation where a light-skinned Black guy like yourself would fit in from an aesthetic standpoint and where there are few or no "nigs" as you call them. Just some ideas that came to me. I've heard that those countries have very few gays or trannies too, so you'd probably like them just fine!

I sincerely wish you well for your health and financial success and for you to one day find a HA location that is suitable for you.

yeah I'm with you on that whole fetish thing. I think I had something like this happen to me at least once in highschool.

[69ixine]

1. Autism and neurological problems

Even though in Spain people are much more accepting of those with autistic traits and quirky behavior and I felt included for the first time in my life, the improvement of my social skills was a gradual process (now made possible by a more inclusive social environment) and I still had to deal with autism-related problems such as mental fatigue, sensory overload, OCD-type thought patterns, dysprosody and anxiety. My botched neurological makeup has always held me back in life and caused me various difficulties. Going abroad to a more open and fertile social climate might have helped me improve but it certainly didn't remove my developmental disorder. That was just a bitter pill that I had to swallow.

Try PharmaGaba,try a PEMF brainwave device,Binaural beats from hemisync,or just neurofeedback LENS..you have money unlike me.you have no excuse to continue to suffer from this.

Thank you, my friend!

I want to look into ways of curing or reducing the symptoms of autism. I too believe that the autism epidemic and various other common neurological dysfunctions are the result of the increase of neurotoxins since the 90s in the form of harmful vaccines, pesticides, heavy metal poisoning and unsafe pharmaceuticals taken during pregnancy among other things. I've been looking into this topic recently and would like to find a remedy for my own autistic symptoms. Psilocybin helps but the effects are only temporary in my experience. I've also read about chlorine dioxide as a possible method of cleansing the gut and thereby curing autism. If I remember correctly, you also mentioned it in a post of yours, brother.

I don't trust the Jew-run medical establishment. They push their bogus science to try to convince us that their vaccines are safe and that there is no link to autism but digging a little deeper will reveal otherwise. They also claim that autism can't be cured and even seek to normalize it just as they are now doing with all kinds of pathological behaviors but I don't believe anything they say and instead would like to explore any possible remedies which are being offered by doctors outside of the mainstream. I want to improve my speech, achieve normal social functioning and reduce my anxiety and OCD-type thinking, just like how I was able to do temporarily after taking psilocybin or Ayahuasca.

I hate what the Jew-run medical establishment is doing to the younger generations. They're messing us up real bad with all of their harmful vaccines and what today passes for "medicine", all in the midst of an already severely contaminated world with hidden poisons and destructive neurotoxins absolutely everywhere. Our world is now an absolute cesspool, all because of the evil elites who have ruined it.

Dude,Blonde guys are smoking hot and many women all over the world dream of a blonde angel as a husband or BF.it's all in your head.You believe the absolute exists,do you think he makes people or whole races and phenotypes ugly?

I'm a goodlooking olive skinned mediterenneanish/middle easternish/Iberianish dude and I don't derive happiness from that.it won't change one bit of your life.

It's not just in my head. Spanish women didn't use to find me attractive and would even tell me that I was too pale but since taking Melanotan and becoming super tanned even Iberian girls as well as Latinas consistently tell me that I'm handsome and even complement my awesome tan. Iberian girls and even many Latinas prefer a White guy who is tanned rather than just weirdly pale.

Yes brother, I completely recognize the Caucasian privilege which exists in the area of international dating, as unfair as it may be. However, in my experience, the kind of White guys who have the upper hand are those who have distinctively Caucasian facial features but who can tan easily and therefore appear like a sexy beach hunk. Think of studs like Arnold Schwarzenegger or some handsome Italian with very European face yet beautiful sun-kissed olive skin at the same time.

If a guy is tanned but has the facial features of an Indian or an Arab, he'll most likely be seen as an unattractive "darkie" by most European and other types of women. If, however, a guy is tanned and has a European face, he'll be sought after as a sexy dark-haired stud. I think that the desire for European men has to do with more than just skin complexion. It has a lot to do with facial aesthetics, height and body type too.

I remember that even Roosh regarded the Mediterranean phenotype as the most desired male phenotype with the Nordic one being second. I observe this too. I believe that being a European with good tanning genetics and beautiful sun-kissed olive skin confers the greatest advantage.

You're gonna be good,man.it is the final destination of all sentient beings to reach the absolute,I call him Allaah or the first,some call him 'paramaShiva'othrs the ankh...but the absolute encompasses and takes all.So just see this life as a test and a theatre.everything has blessing potential,we just have to with God's help-take the blessing energy from it.

I thought for years that if I just became friends with my ex,i would be full happy.it happened like I wanted after almost a decade right when I let go of it,and It doesn't affect me much.You return to your base state whenever you get what you want.during the last day of my trip to miami,I became depressed bcause that was my default state,despite my joyride there for a week.That's just how it is.find a inner and lasting happiness,work out your issues.

maybe seek talk therapy.You cna learn alot from Shaykh Hamza yusuf on youtube and Sufism and kashmir shaivism in general.

take what you see as coinciding with your heart,and leave the rest.

And I care about you brother,and we love you on this site.We wish the best for you and we really love and look up to you.

stay blessed

-Benjamin

Thank you for your advice, brother Benjamin. You're a really good guy too and I always enjoy reading your posts and insights. I wish you many blessings too!

Your friend Lucas

Lucas,I actually agree with the british paleness being unattractive to most because it is grey undertoned and pasty.

My favorite women are blonde white women with tans,I also really like other caucasian darker types like indian women,arabic women and mediterennean women.

I also agree that a tan arab or indian with lighskin is a unattractive darkie,while a darker italian with more european face is considered a exotic stud.

it's not an objective asessment of aesthetics,anyone can be just as goodlooking as the other,it's largely SMV which is social vs looks which is objective but still subject to personal preferences.

I'm sure someone like the dutch moroccan rapper Boef,can get any woman he wants under a non-racial world(I'm no saying that just because i look like him ).

I think with enough use of melanotan II you get a permanent melanated skin.

I think judging yourself based on what wahmen think is the cause of alot of suffering for men in general.

the easiest manipulatable and malleable gender.the sheep.we men are the wolves and the sheperds.

Right now white guys are still 'in'so be grateful.even those med guys would be seen as muslim and be second to a nordic guy,except for some Slavic women and some self-hating nordic european women from scandinavia,which I need to get as a wife lol