Suicide is a very sad and scary thing!

[Mercury]

You've had another horrible, terrible day at school. The cheerleaders were mean and nasty to you again. Your beautiful and sexy ex girlfriend has just hooked up with a violent gang banger. After school, you pleaded with her to leave him, telling her that he was a violent gangster capable of killing, but she backhanded you across the face, spat at you, and called you a horrible derogatory name, then her new boyfriend came along and shoved you to the ground and threatened to kill you.

When you get home, you go to your room and burst into tears. You have had enough and are ready to totally give up. You take out the suicide note, then grab the bottle of pills and take them all at once. Laying down on your bed, holding the suicide note to your chest, you close your eyes for the last time.

3 hours later, your brother comes in and tells you that dinner is ready. You don't respond. He gets your parents. They come in and try to wake you up. Then it hits them; you're dead. They and your brother burst into tears. Then they find and read your suicide note and cry even harder while holding each other. Everyone is too depressed and heartbroken to eat, so the entire dinner goes to waste.

But the next day at your school is a different story. A callous and cruel story. When the Principal announces your suicide, the girls erupt into loud and noisy cheering. Half the school is literally like that scene out of the Wizard of Oz right after Dorothy's house crushed and killed the Wicked Witch of the East. The cheerleaders are literally; "Hip hip horray! (several times repeated) The loser is dead! One less sore loser wasting our oxygen!" They roar with laughter and can not help but feel immensely proud of themselves. They even say literally; "He'll never bother us anymore, the slime face sore loser he was!" Your ex girlfriend jumps for joy and says to her new boyfriend; "What a sore loser my ex was! You are the best guy I ever met." To which he replies; "At least I don't have to kill him now, he's already killed himself. Good riddance to him." To both, the news of your suicide is equal to news that they won a multimillion dollar lottery and tickets for a 2-week Royal Caribbean cruise. Very few if any students feel sad about your suicide. The teachers rap their desks to quiet the roaring students, but the girls only laugh all the louder. Numerous detentions are issued, but even that doesn't stop the cruel laughter. Many girls even cut their detentions and are given heavier disciplinary consequences. As toxic, spoiled, selfish, and hateful Americans, your classmates can not control their immense joy about you being dead.

5 days later, it's your funeral. Only your innermost circle of family came. They knew you, the guy with the bright sweet smile and loving personality. Many are crying very hard. Suddenly your ex girlfriend and her new boyfriend drive by and do a drive by shooting on your funeral with an AK-47, spraying the services and hitting your dad. Your brother tries to stay strong through it all. But as soon as they lower your casket into the ground and haul your dad to the hospital, he loses it and breaks down heavily.

It's 7 years later. Your dad has recovered from the shooting, but your parents both battle heavy depression and so does your brother. Your ex girlfriend is married to the gang banger guy who is now wanted by the FBI for multiple counts of capital murder (cop killer), armed robbery, assault with a deadly weapon, bomb threats, arson, and he also has recently escaped from prison and shot down a pursuing police helicopter with a stolen sniper rifle, causing a massive pileup of police cars resulting in numerous more officers killed and many more injured. The cheerleaders you tried to mingle with have moved to the ghetto and are married to violent killers, three of whom have even gunned down and murdered guys who tried to interact with the former cheerleaders.

Suicide is indeed very sad and scary. And in America, the main root of all suicides is simple; America's own toxic, soulless, disconnected, hateful, paranoid, venomous, and totally inauthentic culture. And by the way, Jesus said that anyone who hates another, especially without cause, commits murder in his/her heart. When someone commits suicide, you are literally talking thousands; yes, even millions of people that are literally guilty of murder in the heart. People who brushed the suicide victim away like a pesky fly, ignored him, told others to stay away from him, called him derogatory names, held up their default ice walls towards him, and all else.

[Eric]

The hell with these people, look at my signature - that's how you should be doing.
Have some self respect, grab onto it, no matter how hard it is, never let it go. Pray to God...work hard...sacrifice yourself, remain sound in mind.

That's it.

[starchild5]

Majority of people who commit suicide are the ones who believe in GOD and Religion.

It's a very rough world...Morality is only for the slaves...

The cheerleaders were mean and nasty to you again. Your beautiful and sexy ex girlfriend has just hooked up with a violent gang banger. After school, you pleaded with her to leave him, telling her that he was a violent gangster capable of killing, but she backhanded you across the face, spat at you, and called you a horrible derogatory name, then her new boyfriend came along and shoved you to the ground and threatened to kill you.

Women are fake and have no moral compass...they move where the strength lies...Women are attracted to power, money, mean mass muscle...They are repulsed by the exact description you gave...

Even in a third world place like India...Women align towards power not high moral code...

Majority of us were brainwashed to be good guys and we loose everything...due to God given moral code...once you become an a**hole and know whom to screw like the bad guys in town who took your gf...you will get all women in the world...

Being Moral only leads to suicide on Earth..harsh reality.

Again..Women do not respond to Morality..They only respond to POWER.

[MrMan]

Part the of the story isn't realistic. If some unpopular kid dies at school, they don't all get so excited. Maybe if he was a horrific bully, but most high school kids would have the good sense not to cheer over something like that. It is more likely that the girls who gave him a hard time would feel a bit guilty. At the very least, some if not all of them would be sad that something like that could happen. Even if they don't cry for the boy, they are sad it happened. Even kids who did not know him would be troubled by the news.

If there is some unpopular kid at school that doesn't have a lot of friends, most of the other kids aren't actively out to get him. Teenagers look in the mirror and notice all the zits the other kids don't notice. They think the other kids all hate them, when other kids are sitting there thinking about themselves, their own zits, and whether the other kids like them.

[Tsar]

Majority of people who commit suicide are the ones who believe in GOD and Religion.

It's a very rough world...Morality is only for the slaves...

The cheerleaders were mean and nasty to you again. Your beautiful and sexy ex girlfriend has just hooked up with a violent gang banger. After school, you pleaded with her to leave him, telling her that he was a violent gangster capable of killing, but she backhanded you across the face, spat at you, and called you a horrible derogatory name, then her new boyfriend came along and shoved you to the ground and threatened to kill you.

Women are fake and have no moral compass...they move where the strength lies...Women are attracted to power, money, mean mass muscle...They are repulsed by the exact description you gave...

Even in a third world place like India...Women align towards power not high moral code...

Majority of us were brainwashed to be good guys and we loose everything...due to God given moral code...once you become an a**hole and know whom to screw like the bad guys in town who took your gf...you will get all women in the world...

Being Moral only leads to suicide on Earth..harsh reality.

Again..Women do not respond to Morality..They only respond to POWER.

Morality is something only people in power can enforce (through authoritarian or totalitarian measures, sometimes both). The world is lead by immoral and corrupt individuals who seized power through democracy over 100-200 years depending on the country, or almost 250 when it comes to America. So it's obvious why immorality is widespread.

It's true that all females only respond to power.

[chanta76]

People suck.. but I have to agree with Mr.Man..If someone did commit suicide not everyone will be laughing but if they were laughing. Killing yourself is means they WON!!

I understand why some kids want to kill their bullies. It sounds nuts or even selfish but I totally understand. You been bullied..No one cares . Other people are selfish..but your life matters to you because you have meaning...but when you lose this. That's when people turn to suicide. You have to be selfish and be mad.

[Eric]

Majority of people who commit suicide are the ones who believe in GOD and Religion.

It's a very rough world...Morality is only for the slaves...

The cheerleaders were mean and nasty to you again. Your beautiful and sexy ex girlfriend has just hooked up with a violent gang banger. After school, you pleaded with her to leave him, telling her that he was a violent gangster capable of killing, but she backhanded you across the face, spat at you, and called you a horrible derogatory name, then her new boyfriend came along and shoved you to the ground and threatened to kill you.

Women are fake and have no moral compass...they move where the strength lies...Women are attracted to power, money, mean mass muscle...They are repulsed by the exact description you gave...

Even in a third world place like India...Women align towards power not high moral code...

Majority of us were brainwashed to be good guys and we loose everything...due to God given moral code...once you become an a**hole and know whom to screw like the bad guys in town who took your gf...you will get all women in the world...

Being Moral only leads to suicide on Earth..harsh reality.

Again..Women do not respond to Morality..They only respond to POWER.

If you really understood God thrn, you'd understand its not legalism of Morality or ethics. A deeper understanding of God will give you understanding of nature of men and women. With that you can manipulate things at will, if you wanted.
This is enormous power. There is no power more than God.
Don't you arrogant idiots understand that, aren't you willing to put aside your small powerless chumped up egos to see the truth?
You lift weights, or go around with a tattoo or a plastic add on attitude...that everyone could see through even especially women...exhausting yourself with acts, then bang a 5 dollar hooker and think you're a mack.

Its laughqble. Put your ego aside and pride....and your bad legalistic experiences with church you had when you were 12...and actually learn something from the timeless wisdom of sages, who understood human nature a lot better than you EVER will.
These are the people who built the pyramids...and they've taken over the world now, learn from them.

I can alpha any alpha around me just by tapping into an inner understanding of who I am and my masculine nature...and most importantly understanding hers. The most powerful thing about it, is that it doesn't come from me.

[Eric]

As far as being powerful, you can read this in proverbs. I learn using the books of the most powerful people on the planet. What re you using ? An act?


At least I try and gain wisdom.

[Tsar]

Majority of people who commit suicide are the ones who believe in GOD and Religion.

It's a very rough world...Morality is only for the slaves...

The cheerleaders were mean and nasty to you again. Your beautiful and sexy ex girlfriend has just hooked up with a violent gang banger. After school, you pleaded with her to leave him, telling her that he was a violent gangster capable of killing, but she backhanded you across the face, spat at you, and called you a horrible derogatory name, then her new boyfriend came along and shoved you to the ground and threatened to kill you.

Women are fake and have no moral compass...they move where the strength lies...Women are attracted to power, money, mean mass muscle...They are repulsed by the exact description you gave...

Even in a third world place like India...Women align towards power not high moral code...

Majority of us were brainwashed to be good guys and we loose everything...due to God given moral code...once you become an a**hole and know whom to screw like the bad guys in town who took your gf...you will get all women in the world...

Being Moral only leads to suicide on Earth..harsh reality.

Again..Women do not respond to Morality..They only respond to POWER.

If you really understood God thrn, you'd understand its not legalism of Morality or ethics. A deeper understanding of God will give you understanding of nature of men and women. With that you can manipulate things at will, if you wanted.
This is enormous power. There is no power more than God.
Don't you arrogant idiots understand that, aren't you willing to put aside your small powerless chumped up egos to see the truth?
You lift weights, or go around with a tattoo or a plastic add on attitude...that everyone could see through even especially women...exhausting yourself with acts, then bang a 5 dollar hooker and think you're a mack.

Its laughqble. Put your ego aside and pride....and your bad legalistic experiences with church you had when you were 12...and actually learn something from the timeless wisdom of sages, who understood human nature a lot better than you EVER will.
These are the people who built the pyramids...and they've taken over the world now, learn from them.

I can alpha any alpha around me just by tapping into an inner understanding of who I am and my masculine nature...and most importantly understanding hers. The most powerful thing about it, is that it doesn't come from me.

Jews didn't build the f***ing Pyramids. The Jews were never in Egypt. The Bible says the Jews were slaves in Egypt? A f***ing myth written by Jews. Egyptians built the pyramids. If the Jews had all that great achitectural knowledge then why is there no f***ing monument of significance or world wonder ever built in Israel by the Jews? Pyramids, Garden of Babylon, the massive stone buildings in Europe and Russia that are megaliths or something, the Great Wall, the pyramids in Cambodia, the Aztec Pyramids and Mayan pyramids, the mysterious people that built the stone heads on Easter Island, etc.

Everyone except the ancient Africans and Israelites built something. Only fundamentalist Christian Americans who I can't f***ing stand or the "I must claim credit for everything even if Jews didn't actually do it" Jews who obviously want credit for everything including the sun shining on a bright sunny day would believe that. The first group because they are ignorant Israeli exalters and the second because their ego is so big they actually believe their own f***ing lies and think its real.

Even people who wrote about their experiences in the Holohoax were outed as frauds but they went on Oprah and other media. Everyone believed them and they even believed themselves until they were outed as frauds. Obviously the book deal fell through and Oprah wasn't happy.

There's more purity in the ancient pagan religions than in a religion designed for slaves, or at least what it has devolved into without Inquisitions and expulsions of Jews and Muslims, and the extermination of atheists who bring down any nation.

I will never really want to be part of the Abrahamic religions which destroyed this world giving all power to the small Rothschild controlled monotheism. The Vatican: Rothschild owned, Saudi Arabian Islam: Rothschild aligned, members of Bilderbergs and Illuminati, Iran: Debatable whether or not its part of the secret conspiracy, the Protestants: Designed to undermine the the Vatican and Monarchism, Judaism: Hates all Goy and proclaims Jews as the Superior Race and the only Race with any Value and that Goy are worse than cattle because even cattle has more value than a Goy, Atheists: No wonder these people are the most immoral and sexually deviant people on Earth bringing down everyone except the Jews that pull their puppet strings, and Islam: Also infiltrated by the Rothschilds who sponsor the wave of terror along with their Middle Eastern Kings who are part of their world empire. So look at this world. The religions are all part of the Rothschilds power book.

No wonder no one speaks out against the fornication that goes on or against homosexuals anymore. And divorced people allowed to remarry and not shamed. And wedlock births not shamed. It's because it's about $$$ for the Rothschild. Modern organized major religion has become one of the many arms of the Rothschild monstrosity that controls the world.

[Eric]

If you read the Bible, you might not be so crazy.

What I meant was, these people were in the same area as the Egyptians, and although I believe there are some lies told, they were in Egypt and did gain knowledge.

Chill out...

[MrMan]

You don't want to join any Abrahamic religions because of... some conspiracy theory that you can't prove that most people would think you were a little nutty for believing in.

Sure, the Rothschilds are uber rich, some of them, at least. But why would no one speaking against fornication or homosexuality or out-of-wedlock births mean more money for the Rothschilds? And why would they need more money?

And you paint different groups with a broad brush. Jews don't all think the same. There are Jews promoting wickedness in Hollywood and in politics, but these tend to be those who have rejected their own traditional religious beliefs.

[Tsar]

You don't want to join any Abrahamic religions because of... some conspiracy theory that you can't prove that most people would think you were a little nutty for believing in.

Sure, the Rothschilds are uber rich, some of them, at least. But why would no one speaking against fornication or homosexuality or out-of-wedlock births mean more money for the Rothschilds? And why would they need more money?

And you paint different groups with a broad brush. Jews don't all think the same. There are Jews promoting wickedness in Hollywood and in politics, but these tend to be those who have rejected their own traditional religious beliefs.

Sure, there are good people in every religion but I'm not wrong the Rothschilds dominate the major monotheist religions today.

Most major American Protest Preachers
The Vatican
Israel and many major Israeli Rabbis
Saudi Arabia and its Kings and many of its radical Imams

All are owned and controlled by the Rothschilds

And they need more $$$ just because they can and because keeping the world in poverty is what they do, unless its for more evil occult reasons.

Politics, Media, Religion, Education, Business, Banking, Technology, Medicine, Science has all been hijacked by the Rothschilds

Anyone that discovers a new thing in science is usually silenced after the Rothschilds got the plans behind it. Same with medicine where new advances aren't made public or available.

There is no $$$ is fixing the world, curing humanity, real cures, real solutions to problems, peace, or a noble religion free from corruption or that remains silent.

Why does no priest, preacher, or reverend openly condemn wedlock births, fornication, divorce, and homosexuality? They would lose almost all their congregation. So they just ignore it. And those things I mentioned exist because of the world was brainwashed by the Rothschilds and their elites. It was kept largely on the margins and fringes of society closely kept a secret or the females who engaged in fornication, and wedlock births outcasts incapable of getting almost any man and sometimes any man.

[Tsar]

You don't want to join any Abrahamic religions because of... some conspiracy theory that you can't prove that most people would think you were a little nutty for believing in.

Sure, the Rothschilds are uber rich, some of them, at least. But why would no one speaking against fornication or homosexuality or out-of-wedlock births mean more money for the Rothschilds? And why would they need more money?

And you paint different groups with a broad brush. Jews don't all think the same. There are Jews promoting wickedness in Hollywood and in politics, but these tend to be those who have rejected their own traditional religious beliefs.

Sure, there are good people in every religion but I'm not wrong the Rothschilds dominate the major monotheist religions today.

Most major American Protest Preachers
The Vatican
Israel and many major Israeli Rabbis
Saudi Arabia and its Kings and many of its radical Imams

All are owned and controlled by the Rothschilds

And they need more $$$ just because they can and because keeping the world in poverty is what they do, unless its for more evil occult reasons.

Politics, Media, Religion, Education, Business, Banking, Technology, Medicine, Science has all been hijacked by the Rothschilds

Anyone that discovers a new thing in science is usually silenced after the Rothschilds got the plans behind it. Same with medicine where new advances aren't made public or available.

There is no $$$ is fixing the world, curing humanity, real cures, real solutions to problems, peace, or a noble religion free from corruption or that remains silent.

Why does no priest, preacher, or reverend openly condemn wedlock births, fornication, divorce, and homosexuality? They would lose almost all their congregation. So they just ignore it. And those things I mentioned exist because of the world was brainwashed by the Rothschilds and their elites. It was kept largely on the margins and fringes of society closely kept a secret or the females who engaged in fornication, and wedlock births outcasts incapable of getting almost any man and sometimes any man.

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[Eric]

You've had another horrible, terrible day at school. The cheerleaders were mean and nasty to you again. Your beautiful and sexy ex girlfriend has just hooked up with a violent gang banger. After school, you pleaded with her to leave him, telling her that he was a violent gangster capable of killing, but she backhanded you across the face, spat at you, and called you a horrible derogatory name, then her new boyfriend came along and shoved you to the ground and threatened to kill you.

When you get home, you go to your room and burst into tears. You have had enough and are ready to totally give up. You take out the suicide note, then grab the bottle of pills and take them all at once. Laying down on your bed, holding the suicide note to your chest, you close your eyes for the last time.

3 hours later, your brother comes in and tells you that dinner is ready. You don't respond. He gets your parents. They come in and try to wake you up. Then it hits them; you're dead. They and your brother burst into tears. Then they find and read your suicide note and cry even harder while holding each other. Everyone is too depressed and heartbroken to eat, so the entire dinner goes to waste.

But the next day at your school is a different story. A callous and cruel story. When the Principal announces your suicide, the girls erupt into loud and noisy cheering. Half the school is literally like that scene out of the Wizard of Oz right after Dorothy's house crushed and killed the Wicked Witch of the East. The cheerleaders are literally; "Hip hip horray! (several times repeated) The loser is dead! One less sore loser wasting our oxygen!" They roar with laughter and can not help but feel immensely proud of themselves. They even say literally; "He'll never bother us anymore, the slime face sore loser he was!" Your ex girlfriend jumps for joy and says to her new boyfriend; "What a sore loser my ex was! You are the best guy I ever met." To which he replies; "At least I don't have to kill him now, he's already killed himself. Good riddance to him." To both, the news of your suicide is equal to news that they won a multimillion dollar lottery and tickets for a 2-week Royal Caribbean cruise. Very few if any students feel sad about your suicide. The teachers rap their desks to quiet the roaring students, but the girls only laugh all the louder. Numerous detentions are issued, but even that doesn't stop the cruel laughter. Many girls even cut their detentions and are given heavier disciplinary consequences. As toxic, spoiled, selfish, and hateful Americans, your classmates can not control their immense joy about you being dead.

5 days later, it's your funeral. Only your innermost circle of family came. They knew you, the guy with the bright sweet smile and loving personality. Many are crying very hard. Suddenly your ex girlfriend and her new boyfriend drive by and do a drive by shooting on your funeral with an AK-47, spraying the services and hitting your dad. Your brother tries to stay strong through it all. But as soon as they lower your casket into the ground and haul your dad to the hospital, he loses it and breaks down heavily.

It's 7 years later. Your dad has recovered from the shooting, but your parents both battle heavy depression and so does your brother. Your ex girlfriend is married to the gang banger guy who is now wanted by the FBI for multiple counts of capital murder (cop killer), armed robbery, assault with a deadly weapon, bomb threats, arson, and he also has recently escaped from prison and shot down a pursuing police helicopter with a stolen sniper rifle, causing a massive pileup of police cars resulting in numerous more officers killed and many more injured. The cheerleaders you tried to mingle with have moved to the ghetto and are married to violent killers, three of whom have even gunned down and murdered guys who tried to interact with the former cheerleaders.

Suicide is indeed very sad and scary. And in America, the main root of all suicides is simple; America's own toxic, soulless, disconnected, hateful, paranoid, venomous, and totally inauthentic culture. And by the way, Jesus said that anyone who hates another, especially without cause, commits murder in his/her heart. When someone commits suicide, you are literally talking thousands; yes, even millions of people that are literally guilty of murder in the heart. People who brushed the suicide victim away like a pesky fly, ignored him, told others to stay away from him, called him derogatory names, held up their default ice walls towards him, and all else.

You know I want to say this life takes monumental effort - If you don't try, if you aren't trying...you will be dissatisfied, chances are you will be dissatisfied anyways, but you don't stand a chance. It's an unhappy life - for everyone I'm concluding. You aren't treated as you should be, often times you fall short. You feel lonely, confused and stressed out, bad feelings most of the time.
Most of us by the time we get past adolescence - if we are lucky enough to have a head about us...still struggle.
I've thought that basic is better. I often think of between two different things - the Religious way to go about life...and the purely visceral. What I mean is, the core essence of life is brutal, honed, animal instinct in a very real sense, especially when dealing with sexuality. What I mean is you have to somehow put aside everything you're taught...and realize especially if you're a man, that to get what you want you have to go for it. You can't listen to brainwash that comes from religion, parents, society in general... if you're going to get lucky scoring. Or to get anything in life in that regard. It's a very harsh reality.
People that adopt this mindset usually are very satisfied, they achieve what they want to and set out, they have clear vision.

Others pacify and get sucked into people pleasing, following a religion, pleasing parents...doing what others tell them to, etc. That's what, I think, happens to most people. Then, you have those who seek the real spiritual path. They seek beyond legalism of Religion, the seekers, to find the core of the human essence and our essence on this sphere called Earth. I am one of these types, for the most part. We all have parts of many.
I'm not sure which is the best.
But I can leave you with one piece of advice - here is an Egyptian proverb that's helped me.
Listen to your conviction, even if they seem absurd to your reason.
Here are some more:

Proverbs were important in ancient Egypt. “The kingdom of heaven is within you; and whosoever shall know himself shall find it” indicate that Egyptians believed in the divine essence man possessed. They believed in the concept “Know yourself”. Proverbs are mostly inscribed on temples.
Some ancient Egyptian proverbs:

True teaching is not an accumulation of knowledge; it is an awaking of consciousness which goes through successive stages.

. The man who knows how to lead one of his brothers towards what he has known may one day be saved by that very brother.

. People bring about their own undoing through their tongues.

. If one tries to navigate in unknown waters one runs the risk of shipwreck.

. Leave him in error who loves his error.

. Every man is rich in excuses to safeguard his prejudices, his instincts and his opinions.

. To know means to record in one’s memory; but to understand means to blend with the thing and to assimilate it oneself.

. True sages are those who give what they have, without meanness and without secret.

. There grows no wheat where there is no grain.

. The only thing that is humiliating is helplessness.

. The best and shortest road towards knowledge of truth is Nature.

. Know the world in yourself. Never look for yourself in the world, for this would be to project your illusion.

. Have the wisdom to abandon the values of a time that has passed and pick out the constituents of the future. An environment must be suited to the age and men to their environment.

. The key to all problems is the problem of consciousness.

. Altruism is the mark of a superior being.

. Man, know thyself and thou shall know the gods.

. Growth in consciousness doesn’t depend on the will of the intellect or its possibilities but on the intensity of the inner urge.

. An answer brings no illumination unless the question has matured to a point where it gives rise to this answer which thus becomes its fruit. Therefore learn how to put a question.

[Eric]

You've had another horrible, terrible day at school. The cheerleaders were mean and nasty to you again. Your beautiful and sexy ex girlfriend has just hooked up with a violent gang banger. After school, you pleaded with her to leave him, telling her that he was a violent gangster capable of killing, but she backhanded you across the face, spat at you, and called you a horrible derogatory name, then her new boyfriend came along and shoved you to the ground and threatened to kill you.

When you get home, you go to your room and burst into tears. You have had enough and are ready to totally give up. You take out the suicide note, then grab the bottle of pills and take them all at once. Laying down on your bed, holding the suicide note to your chest, you close your eyes for the last time.

3 hours later, your brother comes in and tells you that dinner is ready. You don't respond. He gets your parents. They come in and try to wake you up. Then it hits them; you're dead. They and your brother burst into tears. Then they find and read your suicide note and cry even harder while holding each other. Everyone is too depressed and heartbroken to eat, so the entire dinner goes to waste.

But the next day at your school is a different story. A callous and cruel story. When the Principal announces your suicide, the girls erupt into loud and noisy cheering. Half the school is literally like that scene out of the Wizard of Oz right after Dorothy's house crushed and killed the Wicked Witch of the East. The cheerleaders are literally; "Hip hip horray! (several times repeated) The loser is dead! One less sore loser wasting our oxygen!" They roar with laughter and can not help but feel immensely proud of themselves. They even say literally; "He'll never bother us anymore, the slime face sore loser he was!" Your ex girlfriend jumps for joy and says to her new boyfriend; "What a sore loser my ex was! You are the best guy I ever met." To which he replies; "At least I don't have to kill him now, he's already killed himself. Good riddance to him." To both, the news of your suicide is equal to news that they won a multimillion dollar lottery and tickets for a 2-week Royal Caribbean cruise. Very few if any students feel sad about your suicide. The teachers rap their desks to quiet the roaring students, but the girls only laugh all the louder. Numerous detentions are issued, but even that doesn't stop the cruel laughter. Many girls even cut their detentions and are given heavier disciplinary consequences. As toxic, spoiled, selfish, and hateful Americans, your classmates can not control their immense joy about you being dead.

5 days later, it's your funeral. Only your innermost circle of family came. They knew you, the guy with the bright sweet smile and loving personality. Many are crying very hard. Suddenly your ex girlfriend and her new boyfriend drive by and do a drive by shooting on your funeral with an AK-47, spraying the services and hitting your dad. Your brother tries to stay strong through it all. But as soon as they lower your casket into the ground and haul your dad to the hospital, he loses it and breaks down heavily.

It's 7 years later. Your dad has recovered from the shooting, but your parents both battle heavy depression and so does your brother. Your ex girlfriend is married to the gang banger guy who is now wanted by the FBI for multiple counts of capital murder (cop killer), armed robbery, assault with a deadly weapon, bomb threats, arson, and he also has recently escaped from prison and shot down a pursuing police helicopter with a stolen sniper rifle, causing a massive pileup of police cars resulting in numerous more officers killed and many more injured. The cheerleaders you tried to mingle with have moved to the ghetto and are married to violent killers, three of whom have even gunned down and murdered guys who tried to interact with the former cheerleaders.

Suicide is indeed very sad and scary. And in America, the main root of all suicides is simple; America's own toxic, soulless, disconnected, hateful, paranoid, venomous, and totally inauthentic culture. And by the way, Jesus said that anyone who hates another, especially without cause, commits murder in his/her heart. When someone commits suicide, you are literally talking thousands; yes, even millions of people that are literally guilty of murder in the heart. People who brushed the suicide victim away like a pesky fly, ignored him, told others to stay away from him, called him derogatory names, held up their default ice walls towards him, and all else.

You know I want to say this life takes monumental effort - If you don't try, if you aren't trying...you will be dissatisfied, chances are you will be dissatisfied anyways, but you don't stand a chance. It's an unhappy life - for everyone I'm concluding. You aren't treated as you should be, often times you fall short. You feel lonely, confused and stressed out, bad feelings most of the time.
Most of us by the time we get past adolescence - if we are lucky enough to have a head about us...still struggle.
I've thought that basic is better. I often think of between two different things - the Religious way to go about life...and the purely visceral. What I mean is, the core essence of life is brutal, honed, animal instinct in a very real sense, especially when dealing with sexuality. What I mean is you have to somehow put aside everything you're taught...and realize especially if you're a man, that to get what you want you have to go for it. You can't listen to brainwash that comes from religion, parents, society in general... if you're going to get lucky scoring. Or to get anything in life in that regard. It's a very harsh reality.
People that adopt this mindset usually are very satisfied, they achieve what they want to and set out, they have clear vision.

Others pacify and get sucked into people pleasing, following a religion, pleasing parents...doing what others tell them to, etc. That's what, I think, happens to most people. Then, you have those who seek the real spiritual path. They seek beyond legalism of Religion, the seekers, to find the core of the human essence and our essence on this sphere called Earth. I am one of these types, for the most part. We all have parts of many.
I'm not sure which is the best.
But I can leave you with one piece of advice - here is an Egyptian proverb that's helped me.
Listen to your conviction, even if they seem absurd to your reason.
Here are some more:

Proverbs were important in ancient Egypt. “The kingdom of heaven is within you; and whosoever shall know himself shall find it” indicate that Egyptians believed in the divine essence man possessed. They believed in the concept “Know yourself”. Proverbs are mostly inscribed on temples.
Some ancient Egyptian proverbs:

True teaching is not an accumulation of knowledge; it is an awaking of consciousness which goes through successive stages.

. The man who knows how to lead one of his brothers towards what he has known may one day be saved by that very brother.

. People bring about their own undoing through their tongues.

. If one tries to navigate in unknown waters one runs the risk of shipwreck.

. Leave him in error who loves his error.

. Every man is rich in excuses to safeguard his prejudices, his instincts and his opinions.

. To know means to record in one’s memory; but to understand means to blend with the thing and to assimilate it oneself.

. True sages are those who give what they have, without meanness and without secret.

. There grows no wheat where there is no grain.

. The only thing that is humiliating is helplessness.

. The best and shortest road towards knowledge of truth is Nature.

. Know the world in yourself. Never look for yourself in the world, for this would be to project your illusion.

. Have the wisdom to abandon the values of a time that has passed and pick out the constituents of the future. An environment must be suited to the age and men to their environment.

. The key to all problems is the problem of consciousness.

. Altruism is the mark of a superior being.

. Man, know thyself and thou shall know the gods.

. Growth in consciousness doesn’t depend on the will of the intellect or its possibilities but on the intensity of the inner urge.

. An answer brings no illumination unless the question has matured to a point where it gives rise to this answer which thus becomes its fruit. Therefore learn how to put a question.