Jewish Angels castrated me,and I don't know what to do,I'm at my breaking point

[Kalinago]

So,as people who have read my former posts know,I was kind of in a state of doubt about Paganism and christianity for the last few years.

Having cleared my doubts,by becoming a pythagorean/neoplatonist and seeing that the 'god'of christianity/jew-daism cannot be the True God as logically supported by neoplatonism,I was at a point where I simply didn't fear 'jesus'because I know he was not the True God,or better said 'Monad'with all of it's neccesary characteristics and attributes.

Shiva who is a space alien is obv the real God.

but I mean the eternal principle that gave rise to the temporal world,not some temporal man in the sky like jew-sus or allah etc.

I've also shared how I was attacked by angels before .

After the angels knew this,what was going on in my heart and mind,they put me in a state of dreaming where I had a 5 hour long erection,and they were laughing at me in the dream and trying to torture me,and I woke up with a painful state of priapism.

I can hardly feel anything on the head,and I cannot get a full erection,and it still has pain.

I must admit,I am completely demoralized.

Sex was my only pleasure in life.

They also did stuff to my brain where I cannot use anything to heal my OCD like peyote and thus I'm now a castrated mental wreck.

what should I do?

all this being the price for becoming more and more Jew-aware and rejecting Jewish filth like islam,christ-insanity and though I am a communist in the sense that I think its a good system only economically,I don't like marxism or communists because they are Jewish plots and I support strasserism.

[Cornfed]

This is the kind of thing people come up with when they try to do better than Christianity.

[Kalinago]

https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=17&t=73745

do not EAT MEAT,it is sacrificed children!

[Kalinago]

This is the kind of thing people come up with when they try to do better than Christianity.

many people I know on Satanist forums have been attacked by Angels For opposing the jews.