Urgent! Winston's illness could be serious...

[Winston]

This is serious. No joke.

All night I couldn't sleep. I kept coughing like crazy, and at the end of each cough, I let out a nasty loud yell. It was so terrible.

While trying to sleep, I realized something horrifying.

Here I am with fever for two weeks, which is a bad sign because flus do not last that long, and it could mean something serious. Yet NONE of you are praying for me or wishing me to get well. Instead, you are sapping what little energy I have left in pointless ego debates to try to prove yourself right and me wrong, and even attacking me with insults.

That's really sickening. And it's very disrespectful and inconsiderate. I am really suffering now, physically and mentally. And you guys are not even concerned or sympathetic. What if I die? Does anyone care?

I am quite disappointed. I thought you guys were good guys. Good people don't sap the energy of the sick by arguing with them endlessly. And friends don't do that either. Do decent people go into hospitals and start petty arguments/debates with the sick and insult/attack them? Think about it.

So what am I to make of this? I am really shocked and horrified. You guys do not understand the gravity of the situation. My sickness is getting worse. Every night I have fever, light-headedness, dizziness, and now incessant coughing. I barely have any energy to even write this. Yet I receive no sympathy. Only criticism. That's BAD. VERY BAD.

I know what you're thinking now. So I will address it. The doctor scheduled me for lab tests three days ago already to find out what kind of infection I have. But I am having trouble going, because:

1) I am frequently drowsy and sleepy here at random times. So I have trouble getting up on time, and even when I wake up early, I go back to sleep again after 2 hours. So I often miss appointments, and it is hard to follow any kind of schedule here.

2) It is typhoon season now and when it rains hard, I do not go out, which cancels my plans.

3) I feel icky and yucky all the time here, in my mind, body and spirit, so I am often not in the mood to do anything or go anywhere. And with the little energy I have, I feel like it's a painful effort even getting up to go to the bathroom or kitchen. I feel sluggish 24/7 basically.

So I think some of you underestimate how bad it is for me here, and how much I do not fit in here - mentally, physically or spiritually.

Hopefully, I will make it to the lab today.

But I just wanted to let you all know that I am appalled. I thought you guys were my friends, fans and sympathizers. Yet no one is praying for me or concerned about my constant mysterious illness and two week fever. I could have something serious. It's not a joke. Is this really an appropriate time to insult and make fun of me? If you think so, then you have no soul or heart, and ought to be ashamed of yourself.

I am just really shocked. Really.

[onezero4u]

good luck winston...hopefully its nothing serious...

why not disconnect from the forum until you recover or the dooshbags stop busting your balls. no sense in letting them get you down voluntarily

regards

[Iawesome60]

Winston, I care. I hope you feel better. I prayed for you after reading this as a guest (before I logged in).

[steve55]

I've got your back Winston. Hope you get better.

For some reason , message boards bring out the worst in some people. Many people can't help themselves from attacking others, even more so when they are down. I see it over and over again , like a pattern on message boards. It's people with miserable lives themselves who beat a guy while he is down. Im always fighting those types in an effort to call them out for who they really are. I hate those types. One thing for sure, those guys who do that definitely arnt christian.
I admit, I didn't realize you were this bad off though. Wow. That's horrible.

Well, hope you are still there when we get to AC. Hope we can lift your spirits a bit when we hang out. I think you just need a break from AC. Go back to washington for a while. You'll be like new in no time. AC is a polluted shit hole. Only stoic insensitive types can live in that environment.

[Free]

Barring some vicious sort of virus, or STD, I'd wager your immune system has been compromised. The immune system in a working condition is one of the most miraculous systems in all of nature. A healthy one fights an incalculable onslaught of bad elements daily.

Keeping it simple I'd say:
1) Honestly and straight-forward, check what you're eating. Search the net for things that lower the immune system. Watch out for sugar intake, white flour, trans-fats, pork (which is a story in itself), alcohol, etc.
2) Not just foods, but watch the mind-body connection. Without question, negative, depressing, frustrating thoughts lower the immune system, affect libido, etc. People have been even known to literally destroy themselves physically to death by simply their thinking.

Be careful Winston! Take "a breather". Step away for some time and gain a different perspective on things. I see you're quite sensitive, and it's not a defect, you're just...well, more sensitive than most. It just means probably what you're currently doing is not working. Try something completely different. Not sure what. Maybe you need to move to Australia, or irony or all ironies, back to the US, or to Ghana, or who knows! Just keep searching internally, and maybe externally.

Once more, take "a breather". The tension isn't going to help, in fact it will make things worse. Think of the good you've done. Have hopes and visions for things in the future.

Also keep in mind, watch out for those ones out there that would love to see you go down. After all, you do tend to go against the status quo of the ones that push feminism, control over populations, etc. You started a forum where people can get together and break free from systems. There are people in strong positions that don't like these sorts of things.
If anything, just for this one reason, get well again so you can keep fighting. Just keep the guard up, diet-wise, mental-wise, emotion-wise, spirit-wise, and in the other aspects of your life.
Wish you well.

[ErikHeaven]

I love you man. Its time to come back home. Think about it.

[Enishi]

I don't check the forum quite as often as I used to so this is the first I've heard of how bad your illness is.

I hope you get better soon Winston! Stay strong man, and avoid anything that tears you down until your health has improved.

[odbo]

I prayed for you even though you don't believe in god or the law of attraction. You may have angered some witches, but more likely it's something you're doing to yourself. Aren't you on big-pharma medication?

To cure the flu you need a lot of vitamin d (sunshine or in pill form). Vitamin C also keeps you from getting sick. While honey works great for allergies. I'm not sure if the sugar content will make things worse, sugar suppresses the immune system.

We should both look into collidal silver and test it out.

[Jackal]

I will pray for you, Winston.

Here is an image of Medicine Buddha and his mantra:

TEYATA OM BEKANDZE BEKANDZE MAHABEKANDZE RADZA SAMUGATE SOHA

Get well soon!

[Jackal]

Winston, do you take a multivitamin every day? If not, you could have some vitamin deficiency because you've stated that you don't eat a very healthy diet.

If you don't want to take a multivitamin, then at least eat a variety of fruits and vegetables everyday (provided that you wash them thoroughly before eating them).

[jamesbond]

Winston please make sure you get checked up again by your doctor. We are all hoping and praying you get better soon. It sounds like the environment where you live is pretty shitty as far as polution and sanitation goes. I would move out of that place as soon as humanly possible.

Hot and humid weather all year round would make for horrible living conditions. So would cold and snowy weather all year round. The best weather is a mild climate like they have in California, it never gets too cold and never gets too hot (at least close to the ocean).

[Winston]

Hi all,
Thanks for the encouragement.

I did manage to go to the lab today. They did a urine exam, stool exam, blood count test, and chest x-ray. I didn't have time to go back and get the results yet though.

Tonight my fever continued. I slept from 6pm to 1am. At least my stabbing back of the head pains are now gone at least. Now I just have fever everyday and coughing.

Yes I do take multivitamins everyday, but their effectiveness is unclear.

I do, however, take medicine for high blood pressure, and a proton pump inhibitor called Nexium. And the past few weeks I've been using a cream called Aldara to treat a wart. Upon doing some research, some say that Aldara can destroy your immune system. (even though Big Pharma says it's safe) So perhaps that is the culprit?

http://www.townsendletter.com/May2006/aldara0506.htm

It also says it can destroy your appetite, which is interesting cause my appetite has been unusually small the past few weeks.

I don't know. But I'll stop using it and see what happens. My wart is almost gone anyway. But if you don't use it til it's completely gone, it may come back, I hear.

When I drink honey in hot water though, it seems to alleviate some of the pain.

[steve55]

Winston, this is probably an extreme fat fetched idea, but for those who experienced it, it wasn't so far fetched after all. I have seen several TV show documentaries where the man's wife was slowly poisoning them with arsenic. Realistically, anyone who has an axe to grind can sneak bad things into your foods. And poisoning is a slow and gradual onset with ups and downs in between. But there are many ways environmental ways it can happen too. Some (not all) of your symptoms seem to line up with some kind of possible poisoning. I read that some poisonings like arsenic are almost undetectable in blood and hair samples unless specifically testing for that. I think its found in rat poisons. Its tasteless and odorless.

Per WIKI...."Symptoms of arsenic poisoning begin with headaches, confusion, severe diarrhea, and drowsiness. As the poisoning develops, convulsions and changes in fingernail pigmentation called leukonychia may occur. When the poisoning becomes acute, symptoms may include diarrhea, vomiting, blood in the urine, cramping muscles, hair loss, stomach pain, and more convulsions. The organs of the body that are usually affected by arsenic poisoning are the lungs, skin, kidneys, and liver. The final result of arsenic poisoning is coma to death".

[pete98146]

... then at least eat a variety of fruits and vegetables everyday (provided that you wash them thoroughly before eating them).

Excellent suggestion. Might not be a bad idea to invest in a juicer (I'm assuming you'd be able to find one in Phils). Asia has good and cheap assortment of veggies. I like to substitute 2-3 meals a week with green veggie juice. You can sweeten it with apples, carrots, lemon etc. But the key is don't eat anything else for that given meal.

There is a fantasic documentary entitled Fat Sick and Nearly Dead in which a 300lb aussie man cured many of his illnesses simply by juicing. It would be very difficult to go to his lengthts (he juiced every meal for 60 days) because it would require iron will power which most of us don't have. But replacing a few meals per week should yield some good results plus your weight will come down.

Anyways here's to a speedy recovery!

[odbo]

Winston what always baffled me about you is that you put trust in modern medicine. I never called you on this before because I expected you to say something, but really? I mean really???? How long have you been into this "conspiracy" movement. The most useful information of this movement, which an average person isn't exposed to because it sure as hell isn't on tv, is about real diet, real cures, real health. Nothing big pharma gives you works! At best it treats symptoms. Not only that, it makes you sicker, it makes you sterile, and it makes you dumb. You can use a NATURAL method to treat a wart, or you can spend a ton of money supporting an evil industry and retarded Filipino doctors & nurses on something that nearly kills you. Well done Winston, we should all give you a round of applause because it is proof you are a deadbeat who refuses to change any behavior even if you spend hours and hours watching David Icke talking about it, (and agreeing with him!). Was it you who said YOUR dentist would never put mercury in your mouth. Typical rationalization of Winston Wu, complain about everything, learn, then change nothing. Why not go for a botox injection and a nose job while you're at it. You could be the asian Brad PItt, it works for the Koreans.

Modern medicine is for diagnosing a problem (using tests) or for putting someone back together after a car wreck. It's not for treating flus, colds, warts, headaches, cancer, etc. Get a clue moran!