For you who feel like you have nothing to lose, read this.

[magnum]

I'm going to use my self as a example because I'm growing tired of you weak pathetic boys who attempt to come off as men, I'm going to use my story as a example, because I used to be worse than you, and I'm going to cut it short.


Most my life I've been rock bottom, not on the street or addicted to drugs, but think nothing of worth or value, I was raised in a christian home with morals.

My parents were OCD control freaks, if its not logical to them, its wrong and if it's wrong they wont support it, thus my dreams never had support, or at least I had no assistance to them financially, at least not directly, that's not to say they didn't help me with a lot, more than some people ever get in life, but that's how it went.

I was home schooled and kept from the outside world because it might influence me to be sinful and evil, I grew fat because we ate candy every night and fast food every-night for years, I didn't learn to socialize because I was home schooled thus never had connections to anyone outside the house, it worsens.

I hit age 11, already fat around 260 lbs of pure human weakness, then I got addicted to video games, something that would cause me great pains in my life.

Age 18 I discovered women, and my new found pain of no way to socialize with them, nore attract them with my 300+ fat body of a pure example of human weakness, I got nervous just speaking to restaurant workers asking for a refill...that bad...

age 22 rage grew in my heart, and I used that rage to exercise every day until I literally felt my heart burn inside my chest, I refused to accept the place the world so happily placed me, where friends and family comfortably let me dwell, after all if you condemn someone you have to condemn your self a little to, no one in a unhealthy household is going to make it easy for you to get in shape, even if they support it.

23 I'd lost over 70lbs, starting to look like a normal american now, that's to say I look fat to the rest of the world out side of america, I'd been on one date with a ugly white girl, and a ugly american born philippine, progress....

age 24, I've lost 90 lbs, I can openly speak my mind, I don't fear death and I've overcome a lot of social problems, still nervous, but fully capable of being a normal human being.

Age 25 I've dated a korean girl, a chincese girl who was my first girl friend, yes you read that correctly, FIRST girl friend, and a dinnner non-date with a japanese girl, I'm no longer incapable.

age 26, I'm lean and under 10% body fat for the first time, I've come full cycle, I'm capable of things normal people are not, I've scaled buildings most would fear to look down from,I've flipped out doors and even participated in parkour, I've far surpassed normal americans physically and I've mentally accomplished a awareness of human nature most are blind to, I've gained something, self respect.

Today, age 27, I've saved enough to go to a foreign country, I have a great body to attract women with, I'm not fully prepared academically, but I'm a complete person, I would die for save a stranger, and no matter what happens to my self I'm fully faithful to what I believe what I am, and I know that no matter what life throws at me...now defeated I am, how the world treats me unfairly....

>>> EVEN IF I HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE, if life kicks you down, the last person to keep you down will ALWAYS be your self, EVEN WHEN you have NOTHING TO LOSE....you have EVERYTHING left to GAIN.

Stop complaining what the other guy had handed to him, what someone gained and WORKED for, and ignore the egotistical glass ego pansies who have life handed to them, they exist and always will.....but unless your a person of quality you will never have the PRIDE of life that comes with bleeding and crying every step of the way until you finally find your objects completed.


If you have nothing to lose and everything to gain, how dare you act defeated before you even TRY to pick your self back up, because all you've done is proven the world correct, you are worthless.

Even a animal picks its self up and fights until its meat, you have free will, you have choice, make the choice and WILLFUL change in your life to be better, not to cop out and blame the world.


Yes, culture government and circumstance changes a lot, but let me ask you, what have you done to change your self? because I know its not as much as THEY have put forth to change YOU for the worse, and once you realise that, maybe you can fight back.


I might have been dresses in a sheeps costume most my life, but I have the body of a wolf and the heart of a bear, and I forged it with my will power, because I had nothing to lose.


And in closing, all you whores that put down your fellow man that's so desperate for advice and brotherhood your worse than the feminist pig you hate so much, because your noting but a byproduct parasite on the ass of what is the feminist bitch, your worse than they are, at least they server themselves, you server them as a sub-creature incapable of independent thought only self loathing and finger pointing, you only feed the ego of the enemy, and you only help to belittle your fellow man.


I could care less how many of you don't like what I say next, but jesus christ gave me the power of WILL and choice, its the single most powerful tool a man has at his disposal, with will you can do almost anything, if I didn't have him in my life, I'd still be the 300 lbs fat cripple of a boy I used to be.


I'm offering my assistance to anyone who wants it who's trying to get in shape, just pm me, I'm going to offer my most valuable knowledge to my fellow man, because someone has to bring something of value to this forum, the hurt ego driving rhetoric of some of you "elitists" is empty, all you do is offer negativity and doom, and speak of nothing that could help someone.

it's 1:43 AM, I didn't proof read this, you can bite me elitist scum.

[OutWest]

I'm going to use my self as a example because I'm growing tired of you weak pathetic boys who attempt to come off as men, I'm going to use my story as a example, because I used to be worse than you, and I'm going to cut it short.


Most my life I've been rock bottom, not on the street or addicted to drugs, but think nothing of worth or value, I was raised in a christian home with morals.

My parents were OCD control freaks, if its not logical to them, its wrong and if it's wrong they wont support it, thus my dreams never had support, or at least I had no assistance to them financially, at least not directly, that's not to say they didn't help me with a lot, more than some people ever get in life, but that's how it went.

I was home schooled and kept from the outside world because it might influence me to be sinful and evil, I grew fat because we ate candy every night and fast food every-night for years, I didn't learn to socialize because I was home schooled thus never had connections to anyone outside the house, it worsens.

I hit age 11, already fat around 260 lbs of pure human weakness, then I got addicted to video games, something that would cause me great pains in my life.

Age 18 I discovered women, and my new found pain of no way to socialize with them, nore attract them with my 300+ fat body of a pure example of human weakness, I got nervous just speaking to restaurant workers asking for a refill...that bad...

age 22 rage grew in my heart, and I used that rage to exercise every day until I literally felt my heart burn inside my chest, I refused to accept the place the world so happily placed me, where friends and family comfortably let me dwell, after all if you condemn someone you have to condemn your self a little to, no one in a unhealthy household is going to make it easy for you to get in shape, even if they support it.

23 I'd lost over 70lbs, starting to look like a normal american now, that's to say I look fat to the rest of the world out side of america, I'd been on one date with a ugly white girl, and a ugly american born philippine, progress....

age 24, I've lost 90 lbs, I can openly speak my mind, I don't fear death and I've overcome a lot of social problems, still nervous, but fully capable of being a normal human being.

Age 25 I've dated a korean girl, a chincese girl who was my first girl friend, yes you read that correctly, FIRST girl friend, and a dinnner non-date with a japanese girl, I'm no longer incapable.

age 26, I'm lean and under 10% body fat for the first time, I've come full cycle, I'm capable of things normal people are not, I've scaled buildings most would fear to look down from,I've flipped out doors and even participated in parkour, I've far surpassed normal americans physically and I've mentally accomplished a awareness of human nature most are blind to, I've gained something, self respect.

Today, age 27, I've saved enough to go to a foreign country, I have a great body to attract women with, I'm not fully prepared academically, but I'm a complete person, I would die for save a stranger, and no matter what happens to my self I'm fully faithful to what I believe what I am, and I know that no matter what life throws at me...now defeated I am, how the world treats me unfairly....

>>> EVEN IF I HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE, if life kicks you down, the last person to keep you down will ALWAYS be your self, EVEN WHEN you have NOTHING TO LOSE....you have EVERYTHING left to GAIN.

Stop complaining what the other guy had handed to him, what someone gained and WORKED for, and ignore the egotistical glass ego pansies who have life handed to them, they exist and always will.....but unless your a person of quality you will never have the PRIDE of life that comes with bleeding and crying every step of the way until you finally find your objects completed.


If you have nothing to lose and everything to gain, how dare you act defeated before you even TRY to pick your self back up, because all you've done is proven the world correct, you are worthless.

Even a animal picks its self up and fights until its meat, you have free will, you have choice, make the choice and WILLFUL change in your life to be better, not to cop out and blame the world.


Yes, culture government and circumstance changes a lot, but let me ask you, what have you done to change your self? because I know its not as much as THEY have put forth to change YOU for the worse, and once you realise that, maybe you can fight back.


I might have been dresses in a sheeps costume most my life, but I have the body of a wolf and the heart of a bear, and I forged it with my will power, because I had nothing to lose.


And in closing, all you whores that put down your fellow man that's so desperate for advice and brotherhood your worse than the feminist pig you hate so much, because your noting but a byproduct parasite on the ass of what is the feminist bitch, your worse than they are, at least they server themselves, you server them as a sub-creature incapable of independent thought only self loathing and finger pointing, you only feed the ego of the enemy, and you only help to belittle your fellow man.


I could care less how many of you don't like what I say next, but jesus christ gave me the power of WILL and choice, its the single most powerful tool a man has at his disposal, with will you can do almost anything, if I didn't have him in my life, I'd still be the 300 lbs fat cripple of a boy I used to be.


I'm offering my assistance to anyone who wants it who's trying to get in shape, just pm me, I'm going to offer my most valuable knowledge to my fellow man, because someone has to bring something of value to this forum, the hurt ego driving rhetoric of some of you "elitists" is empty, all you do is offer negativity and doom, and speak of nothing that could help someone.

it's 1:43 AM, I didn't proof read this, you can bite me elitist scum.

+1 totally.

Outwest

[publicduende]

I'm going to use my self as a example because I'm growing tired of you weak pathetic boys who attempt to come off as men, I'm going to use my story as a example, because I used to be worse than you, and I'm going to cut it short.


Most my life I've been rock bottom, not on the street or addicted to drugs, but think nothing of worth or value, I was raised in a christian home with morals.

My parents were OCD control freaks, if its not logical to them, its wrong and if it's wrong they wont support it, thus my dreams never had support, or at least I had no assistance to them financially, at least not directly, that's not to say they didn't help me with a lot, more than some people ever get in life, but that's how it went.

I was home schooled and kept from the outside world because it might influence me to be sinful and evil, I grew fat because we ate candy every night and fast food every-night for years, I didn't learn to socialize because I was home schooled thus never had connections to anyone outside the house, it worsens.

I hit age 11, already fat around 260 lbs of pure human weakness, then I got addicted to video games, something that would cause me great pains in my life.

Age 18 I discovered women, and my new found pain of no way to socialize with them, nore attract them with my 300+ fat body of a pure example of human weakness, I got nervous just speaking to restaurant workers asking for a refill...that bad...

age 22 rage grew in my heart, and I used that rage to exercise every day until I literally felt my heart burn inside my chest, I refused to accept the place the world so happily placed me, where friends and family comfortably let me dwell, after all if you condemn someone you have to condemn your self a little to, no one in a unhealthy household is going to make it easy for you to get in shape, even if they support it.

23 I'd lost over 70lbs, starting to look like a normal american now, that's to say I look fat to the rest of the world out side of america, I'd been on one date with a ugly white girl, and a ugly american born philippine, progress....

age 24, I've lost 90 lbs, I can openly speak my mind, I don't fear death and I've overcome a lot of social problems, still nervous, but fully capable of being a normal human being.

Age 25 I've dated a korean girl, a chincese girl who was my first girl friend, yes you read that correctly, FIRST girl friend, and a dinnner non-date with a japanese girl, I'm no longer incapable.

age 26, I'm lean and under 10% body fat for the first time, I've come full cycle, I'm capable of things normal people are not, I've scaled buildings most would fear to look down from,I've flipped out doors and even participated in parkour, I've far surpassed normal americans physically and I've mentally accomplished a awareness of human nature most are blind to, I've gained something, self respect.

Today, age 27, I've saved enough to go to a foreign country, I have a great body to attract women with, I'm not fully prepared academically, but I'm a complete person, I would die for save a stranger, and no matter what happens to my self I'm fully faithful to what I believe what I am, and I know that no matter what life throws at me...now defeated I am, how the world treats me unfairly....

>>> EVEN IF I HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE, if life kicks you down, the last person to keep you down will ALWAYS be your self, EVEN WHEN you have NOTHING TO LOSE....you have EVERYTHING left to GAIN.

Stop complaining what the other guy had handed to him, what someone gained and WORKED for, and ignore the egotistical glass ego pansies who have life handed to them, they exist and always will.....but unless your a person of quality you will never have the PRIDE of life that comes with bleeding and crying every step of the way until you finally find your objects completed.


If you have nothing to lose and everything to gain, how dare you act defeated before you even TRY to pick your self back up, because all you've done is proven the world correct, you are worthless.

Even a animal picks its self up and fights until its meat, you have free will, you have choice, make the choice and WILLFUL change in your life to be better, not to cop out and blame the world.


Yes, culture government and circumstance changes a lot, but let me ask you, what have you done to change your self? because I know its not as much as THEY have put forth to change YOU for the worse, and once you realise that, maybe you can fight back.


I might have been dresses in a sheeps costume most my life, but I have the body of a wolf and the heart of a bear, and I forged it with my will power, because I had nothing to lose.


And in closing, all you whores that put down your fellow man that's so desperate for advice and brotherhood your worse than the feminist pig you hate so much, because your noting but a byproduct parasite on the ass of what is the feminist bitch, your worse than they are, at least they server themselves, you server them as a sub-creature incapable of independent thought only self loathing and finger pointing, you only feed the ego of the enemy, and you only help to belittle your fellow man.


I could care less how many of you don't like what I say next, but jesus christ gave me the power of WILL and choice, its the single most powerful tool a man has at his disposal, with will you can do almost anything, if I didn't have him in my life, I'd still be the 300 lbs fat cripple of a boy I used to be.


I'm offering my assistance to anyone who wants it who's trying to get in shape, just pm me, I'm going to offer my most valuable knowledge to my fellow man, because someone has to bring something of value to this forum, the hurt ego driving rhetoric of some of you "elitists" is empty, all you do is offer negativity and doom, and speak of nothing that could help someone.

it's 1:43 AM, I didn't proof read this, you can bite me elitist scum.

Very nice story Magnun, overcoming one's fears, the enemy inside, is the hardest of battles. Thanks heavens I grew up naturally extroverted and always had music making and writing (journalism) to keep my self-esteem going in those moment of solitude and frustration.

Since I'm feeling inspired today, I'm dedicating the "old you" an equally old Italian pop song. Here's the video and below a quick translation of the lyrics. Quite spot on I would say. Good luck with your future Magnum, and congratulations for being "happier at home" even before being it abroad.



I am an elephant,
and can't get through
I slowly drag myself
and my own weight.

I live in shame,
and eat alone.
And you can't imagine,
what pain it is to dream,
for those who never can.

I am an elephant,
and always hiding.
But no shelter is deep enough.

I can't run away,
what a pain to show myself,
to your sight, which I love
and laughs of me.

You're a butterly,
flying light and free, over me.
Never, I will never reach you.
You break my heart and fly ayway,
up there.

I am an elephant,
what can I do,
nailed to the ground,
and to this love.

I try to chase you,
but fall down, and stay down.
You can't even try to help,
so please go away.

You're a butterly,
flying light and free, over me.
Never, I will never reach you.
You break my heart and fly ayway,
up there.

Deep inside me, deep inside,
I have the heart of a butterfly,
and you'll never see,
how much it looks like you.

Deep inside me, deep inside,
I have the heart of a butterfly...

[chaste_filipina]

I was touched and my heart moved by your ordeals...

Stay inspired and driven!

[DevilsAdvocate]

I'm going to use my self as a example because I'm growing tired of you weak pathetic boys who attempt to come off as men, I'm going to use my story as a example, because I used to be worse than you, and I'm going to cut it short.


Most my life I've been rock bottom, not on the street or addicted to drugs, but think nothing of worth or value, I was raised in a christian home with morals.

My parents were OCD control freaks, if its not logical to them, its wrong and if it's wrong they wont support it, thus my dreams never had support, or at least I had no assistance to them financially, at least not directly, that's not to say they didn't help me with a lot, more than some people ever get in life, but that's how it went.

I was home schooled and kept from the outside world because it might influence me to be sinful and evil, I grew fat because we ate candy every night and fast food every-night for years, I didn't learn to socialize because I was home schooled thus never had connections to anyone outside the house, it worsens.

I hit age 11, already fat around 260 lbs of pure human weakness, then I got addicted to video games, something that would cause me great pains in my life.

Age 18 I discovered women, and my new found pain of no way to socialize with them, nore attract them with my 300+ fat body of a pure example of human weakness, I got nervous just speaking to restaurant workers asking for a refill...that bad...

age 22 rage grew in my heart, and I used that rage to exercise every day until I literally felt my heart burn inside my chest, I refused to accept the place the world so happily placed me, where friends and family comfortably let me dwell, after all if you condemn someone you have to condemn your self a little to, no one in a unhealthy household is going to make it easy for you to get in shape, even if they support it.

23 I'd lost over 70lbs, starting to look like a normal american now, that's to say I look fat to the rest of the world out side of america, I'd been on one date with a ugly white girl, and a ugly american born philippine, progress....

age 24, I've lost 90 lbs, I can openly speak my mind, I don't fear death and I've overcome a lot of social problems, still nervous, but fully capable of being a normal human being.

Age 25 I've dated a korean girl, a chincese girl who was my first girl friend, yes you read that correctly, FIRST girl friend, and a dinnner non-date with a japanese girl, I'm no longer incapable.

age 26, I'm lean and under 10% body fat for the first time, I've come full cycle, I'm capable of things normal people are not, I've scaled buildings most would fear to look down from,I've flipped out doors and even participated in parkour, I've far surpassed normal americans physically and I've mentally accomplished a awareness of human nature most are blind to, I've gained something, self respect.

Today, age 27, I've saved enough to go to a foreign country, I have a great body to attract women with, I'm not fully prepared academically, but I'm a complete person, I would die for save a stranger, and no matter what happens to my self I'm fully faithful to what I believe what I am, and I know that no matter what life throws at me...now defeated I am, how the world treats me unfairly....

>>> EVEN IF I HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE, if life kicks you down, the last person to keep you down will ALWAYS be your self, EVEN WHEN you have NOTHING TO LOSE....you have EVERYTHING left to GAIN.

Stop complaining what the other guy had handed to him, what someone gained and WORKED for, and ignore the egotistical glass ego pansies who have life handed to them, they exist and always will.....but unless your a person of quality you will never have the PRIDE of life that comes with bleeding and crying every step of the way until you finally find your objects completed.


If you have nothing to lose and everything to gain, how dare you act defeated before you even TRY to pick your self back up, because all you've done is proven the world correct, you are worthless.

Even a animal picks its self up and fights until its meat, you have free will, you have choice, make the choice and WILLFUL change in your life to be better, not to cop out and blame the world.


Yes, culture government and circumstance changes a lot, but let me ask you, what have you done to change your self? because I know its not as much as THEY have put forth to change YOU for the worse, and once you realise that, maybe you can fight back.


I might have been dresses in a sheeps costume most my life, but I have the body of a wolf and the heart of a bear, and I forged it with my will power, because I had nothing to lose.


And in closing, all you whores that put down your fellow man that's so desperate for advice and brotherhood your worse than the feminist pig you hate so much, because your noting but a byproduct parasite on the ass of what is the feminist bitch, your worse than they are, at least they server themselves, you server them as a sub-creature incapable of independent thought only self loathing and finger pointing, you only feed the ego of the enemy, and you only help to belittle your fellow man.


I could care less how many of you don't like what I say next, but jesus christ gave me the power of WILL and choice, its the single most powerful tool a man has at his disposal, with will you can do almost anything, if I didn't have him in my life, I'd still be the 300 lbs fat cripple of a boy I used to be.


I'm offering my assistance to anyone who wants it who's trying to get in shape, just pm me, I'm going to offer my most valuable knowledge to my fellow man, because someone has to bring something of value to this forum, the hurt ego driving rhetoric of some of you "elitists" is empty, all you do is offer negativity and doom, and speak of nothing that could help someone.

it's 1:43 AM, I didn't proof read this, you can bite me elitist scum.

Very nice story Magnun, overcoming one's fears, the enemy inside, is the hardest of battles. Thanks heavens I grew up naturally extroverted and always had music making and writing (journalism) to keep my self-esteem going in those moment of solitude and frustration.

Since I'm feeling inspired today, I'm dedicating the "old you" an equally old Italian pop song. Here's the video and below a quick translation of the lyrics. Quite spot on I would say. Good luck with your future Magnum, and congratulations for being "happier at home" even before being it abroad.



I am an elephant,
and can't get through
I slowly drag myself
and my own weight.

I live in shame,
and eat alone.
And you can't imagine,
what pain it is to dream,
for those who never can.

I am an elephant,
and always hiding.
But no shelter is deep enough.

I can't run away,
what a pain to show myself,
to your sight, which I love
and laughs of me.

You're a butterly,
flying light and free, over me.
Never, I will never reach you.
You break my heart and fly ayway,
up there.

I am an elephant,
what can I do,
nailed to the ground,
and to this love.

I try to chase you,
but fall down, and stay down.
You can't even try to help,
so please go away.

You're a butterly,
flying light and free, over me.
Never, I will never reach you.
You break my heart and fly ayway,
up there.

Deep inside me, deep inside,
I have the heart of a butterfly,
and you'll never see,
how much it looks like you.

Deep inside me, deep inside,
I have the heart of a butterfly...

Now you're a guy and you are quoting poetry?

Listen, I'm a scientist, I'm well versed in "Brain Sex Theory", trust me pal you are not a man, you need to come out the closest and admit you are homosexual, it's really that simple.

Men do not like poetry, that is for women and for faggots....

I can read into you and everything about you is the right side of the brain, that's what side you use, therefore if you are a Y chromosome you are a faggot, if you are really an X chromosome then you are a women pretending to be a man.

You must think this forum a bunch of retards I'll tell you.

Signed,

Devils Advocate

[publicduende]

I'm going to use my self as a example because I'm growing tired of you weak pathetic boys who attempt to come off as men, I'm going to use my story as a example, because I used to be worse than you, and I'm going to cut it short.


Most my life I've been rock bottom, not on the street or addicted to drugs, but think nothing of worth or value, I was raised in a christian home with morals.

My parents were OCD control freaks, if its not logical to them, its wrong and if it's wrong they wont support it, thus my dreams never had support, or at least I had no assistance to them financially, at least not directly, that's not to say they didn't help me with a lot, more than some people ever get in life, but that's how it went.

I was home schooled and kept from the outside world because it might influence me to be sinful and evil, I grew fat because we ate candy every night and fast food every-night for years, I didn't learn to socialize because I was home schooled thus never had connections to anyone outside the house, it worsens.

I hit age 11, already fat around 260 lbs of pure human weakness, then I got addicted to video games, something that would cause me great pains in my life.

Age 18 I discovered women, and my new found pain of no way to socialize with them, nore attract them with my 300+ fat body of a pure example of human weakness, I got nervous just speaking to restaurant workers asking for a refill...that bad...

age 22 rage grew in my heart, and I used that rage to exercise every day until I literally felt my heart burn inside my chest, I refused to accept the place the world so happily placed me, where friends and family comfortably let me dwell, after all if you condemn someone you have to condemn your self a little to, no one in a unhealthy household is going to make it easy for you to get in shape, even if they support it.

23 I'd lost over 70lbs, starting to look like a normal american now, that's to say I look fat to the rest of the world out side of america, I'd been on one date with a ugly white girl, and a ugly american born philippine, progress....

age 24, I've lost 90 lbs, I can openly speak my mind, I don't fear death and I've overcome a lot of social problems, still nervous, but fully capable of being a normal human being.

Age 25 I've dated a korean girl, a chincese girl who was my first girl friend, yes you read that correctly, FIRST girl friend, and a dinnner non-date with a japanese girl, I'm no longer incapable.

age 26, I'm lean and under 10% body fat for the first time, I've come full cycle, I'm capable of things normal people are not, I've scaled buildings most would fear to look down from,I've flipped out doors and even participated in parkour, I've far surpassed normal americans physically and I've mentally accomplished a awareness of human nature most are blind to, I've gained something, self respect.

Today, age 27, I've saved enough to go to a foreign country, I have a great body to attract women with, I'm not fully prepared academically, but I'm a complete person, I would die for save a stranger, and no matter what happens to my self I'm fully faithful to what I believe what I am, and I know that no matter what life throws at me...now defeated I am, how the world treats me unfairly....

>>> EVEN IF I HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE, if life kicks you down, the last person to keep you down will ALWAYS be your self, EVEN WHEN you have NOTHING TO LOSE....you have EVERYTHING left to GAIN.

Stop complaining what the other guy had handed to him, what someone gained and WORKED for, and ignore the egotistical glass ego pansies who have life handed to them, they exist and always will.....but unless your a person of quality you will never have the PRIDE of life that comes with bleeding and crying every step of the way until you finally find your objects completed.


If you have nothing to lose and everything to gain, how dare you act defeated before you even TRY to pick your self back up, because all you've done is proven the world correct, you are worthless.

Even a animal picks its self up and fights until its meat, you have free will, you have choice, make the choice and WILLFUL change in your life to be better, not to cop out and blame the world.


Yes, culture government and circumstance changes a lot, but let me ask you, what have you done to change your self? because I know its not as much as THEY have put forth to change YOU for the worse, and once you realise that, maybe you can fight back.


I might have been dresses in a sheeps costume most my life, but I have the body of a wolf and the heart of a bear, and I forged it with my will power, because I had nothing to lose.


And in closing, all you whores that put down your fellow man that's so desperate for advice and brotherhood your worse than the feminist pig you hate so much, because your noting but a byproduct parasite on the ass of what is the feminist bitch, your worse than they are, at least they server themselves, you server them as a sub-creature incapable of independent thought only self loathing and finger pointing, you only feed the ego of the enemy, and you only help to belittle your fellow man.


I could care less how many of you don't like what I say next, but jesus christ gave me the power of WILL and choice, its the single most powerful tool a man has at his disposal, with will you can do almost anything, if I didn't have him in my life, I'd still be the 300 lbs fat cripple of a boy I used to be.


I'm offering my assistance to anyone who wants it who's trying to get in shape, just pm me, I'm going to offer my most valuable knowledge to my fellow man, because someone has to bring something of value to this forum, the hurt ego driving rhetoric of some of you "elitists" is empty, all you do is offer negativity and doom, and speak of nothing that could help someone.

it's 1:43 AM, I didn't proof read this, you can bite me elitist scum.

Very nice story Magnun, overcoming one's fears, the enemy inside, is the hardest of battles. Thanks heavens I grew up naturally extroverted and always had music making and writing (journalism) to keep my self-esteem going in those moment of solitude and frustration.

Since I'm feeling inspired today, I'm dedicating the "old you" an equally old Italian pop song. Here's the video and below a quick translation of the lyrics. Quite spot on I would say. Good luck with your future Magnum, and congratulations for being "happier at home" even before being it abroad.



I am an elephant,
and can't get through
I slowly drag myself
and my own weight.

I live in shame,
and eat alone.
And you can't imagine,
what pain it is to dream,
for those who never can.

I am an elephant,
and always hiding.
But no shelter is deep enough.

I can't run away,
what a pain to show myself,
to your sight, which I love
and laughs of me.

You're a butterly,
flying light and free, over me.
Never, I will never reach you.
You break my heart and fly ayway,
up there.

I am an elephant,
what can I do,
nailed to the ground,
and to this love.

I try to chase you,
but fall down, and stay down.
You can't even try to help,
so please go away.

You're a butterly,
flying light and free, over me.
Never, I will never reach you.
You break my heart and fly ayway,
up there.

Deep inside me, deep inside,
I have the heart of a butterfly,
and you'll never see,
how much it looks like you.

Deep inside me, deep inside,
I have the heart of a butterfly...

Now you're a guy and you are quoting poetry?

Listen, I'm a scientist, I'm well versed in "Brain Sex Theory", trust me pal you are not a man, you need to come out the closest and admit you are homosexual, it's really that simple.

Men do not like poetry, that is for women and for faggots....

I can read into you and everything about you is the right side of the brain, that's what side you use, therefore if you are a Y chromosome you are a faggot, if you are really an X chromosome then you are a women pretending to be a man.

You must think this forum a bunch of retards I'll tell you.

Signed,

Devils Advocate

OK let me think...an accomplished German scientist who's well versed in "Brain Sex Theory" and hates Jews, women and gays. Bad timing, I think you should have been born about 70 years ago. A nice chap called Josef Mengele would have loved to have you on board.