Being a social out cast can leave you so angry at the world

[chanta76]

I mean so angry at the world because they treat you like a tool. I mean so angry that the only way to relieve you pain is to give someone else your pain.
I mean so angry that you want to get a gun to shoot the people that wronged you.

For me lots of my anger comes from my social interaction. I still remember those times when I approach girls in bars and got the nastiest rejection. I mean a polite no could of done the job but to berate and put me down is just being mean. And these are Asian American girls I'm approaching. I know I know some of you will say these are American girls so f**k them.

But the pain still lingers and festers like cancer. I get ignored . I get over looked. I can't help but feel ugly and unattractive. Is it any wonder that I turn to international dating for my salvation. It's like that is the only way.

I get mad at my parents for immigrating to USA. I always wonder what life could of been for me in South Korea growing up. I feel that I might be more secure as a man. I still get mad because my family depends on me so it's hard for me to relocate to another country. There are times I think about killing off my parents because I am so unhappy here in the states. But they are my parents it's not their fault. They didn't know how America really is.

I get mad at all the Asian American girls I see who act all high and mightly..actually allot of the American girl. I feel that one solution is to get a gun buy plenty of ammo and just go on a shooting spree.

I have this crazy fantasy ..of just killing someone. That's how angry I am. I actually saw a therapist about this....I'm angry at him for charging me so much with little help.

Anyone...get that angry. I mean I told a friend I want to get a gun go into one of those night clubs and shoot those stuck up bitches..or get a knife and stab them over and over....that's how angry I am.


(PS this is just me ranting....I'm not over the edge yet...)

[odbo]

We all have to live in the same world you do and it's not easy for anyone. Try not to let it affect you negatively. They call these "the end times" for a reason. Even if you go back 10 or 20 years everyone was a lot more healthy mentally. Never in human history have people had to endure this much dysfunctionality, although feminism and other counter-intuitive social orders existed in past empires just prior to their collapse as fschmidt pointed out. Still most of the hardship was physical, while we have cozy lives combined with mental torture. Things could be worse, at least you're not in a gulag. And there is plenty of food (for now). Stay positive.

Most people are not evil, but they are stupid. You are dealing with personas. Remember that when encountering a vindictive bitch. You can get mad at them, but at the end of you day you're just getting mad at a fool, completely unconscious to what they're doing. They have been consumed by "demons", embedded with all sorts of programming that dictates their decisions in life. Their only crime is being weak. When they awaken from their trance, don't expect them to apologize to the people they've hurt.

[Falcon]

I was also very angry about my experiences with Asian-American girls. But by escaping across the border and becoming a new person altogether, I was able to get over them and shove my negative thoughts and memories down into the drain. In Mexico, I went to some dances and was shocked at how I could so easily chat up the women, pair up with them, and just start dancing with them. Like this - imagine a young Asian guy with a cowboy hat dancing with a Mexican lady:



You do NOT want to be in this kind of environment - where the women are very stuck-up, nasty, and prefer to grind amongst themselves. This type of environment is toxic and unhealthy. This is typical the American dating and clubbing scene - which you need to get OUT of. People never pair up like in the Mexican dances.



Don't be another Seung-hui Cho. Get out (and I mean OUT of whatever depressing environment you're in) and do something positive.

[zboy1]

I mean so angry at the world because they treat you like a tool. I mean so angry that the only way to relieve you pain is to give someone else your pain.
I mean so angry that you want to get a gun to shoot the people that wronged you.

For me lots of my anger comes from my social interaction. I still remember those times when I approach girls in bars and got the nastiest rejection. I mean a polite no could of done the job but to berate and put me down is just being mean. And these are Asian American girls I'm approaching. I know I know some of you will say these are American girls so f**k them.

But the pain still lingers and festers like cancer. I get ignored . I get over looked. I can't help but feel ugly and unattractive. Is it any wonder that I turn to international dating for my salvation. It's like that is the only way.

I get mad at my parents for immigrating to USA. I always wonder what life could of been for me in South Korea growing up. I feel that I might be more secure as a man. I still get mad because my family depends on me so it's hard for me to relocate to another country. There are times I think about killing off my parents because I am so unhappy here in the states. But they are my parents it's not their fault. They didn't know how America really is.

I get mad at all the Asian American girls I see who act all high and mightly..actually allot of the American girl. I feel that one solution is to get a gun buy plenty of ammo and just go on a shooting spree.

I have this crazy fantasy ..of just killing someone. That's how angry I am. I actually saw a therapist about this....I'm angry at him for charging me so much with little help.

Anyone...get that angry. I mean I told a friend I want to get a gun go into one of those night clubs and shoot those stuck up bitches..or get a knife and stab them over and over....that's how angry I am.


(PS this is just me ranting....I'm not over the edge yet...)

Dude, your story is very similar to mines. I've gotten past the anger and hurt long ago, but it still sticks with you wherever you go, unfortunately. And I hear you about the Asian American females--so many of them are bitchy, materialistic, self-hating, white-worshiping bitches. Asian girls can be just as nasty or worse than either white or black American women, in many cases. I always wonder how much my life would be better if my parents had never immigrated to this hell-hole of a country.

[zboy1]

I was also very angry about my experiences with Asian-American girls. But by escaping across the border and becoming a new person altogether, I was able to get over them and shove my negative thoughts and memories down into the drain. I went to some dances and was shocked at how I could so easily chat up the women, pair up with them, and just start dancing with them. Like this - imagine a young Asian guy with a cowboy hat dancing with a Mexican lady:



Don't be another Seung-hui Cho. Get out (and I mean OUT of whatever depressing environment you're in) and do something positive.

Yes, its true Falcon. I know when I went to the Dominican Republic on vacation with my family, I was surprised to see some of the stares I got from some of the very attractive Dominican ladies I saw over there. They did seem to be very down-to-earth and friendly, which is just the total opposite reaction I get from American women.

[Billy]

so here are some angry asians. i am an angry turk. so welcome to the club. . i heard there are some angry mexicans in mexico who like to kill people. everywhere there are angry people and angry young men. life is a bitch

[ManInSiam]

Make plans to leave America. Save up your money, look for recruiters who can relocate you overseas.

If you can't find anything look into esl jobs in asia as a backup. Korea pays well and is looking for gyopos like you. Lifestyle is good, plus you can save up a lot what you earn too.

If you can take a quick vacation abroad do it, maybe to the Domincan Republic. Don't do what that guy in Oakland did. He didnt know he had alternatives. You do. You just need to be a little patient.

[Falcon]

If you are depressed for the moment, take a brief R&R trip to Latin America or wherever - anywhere from 1-3 weeks. If you budget carefully, it shouldn't cost more than $2,000. Another alternative is to hang out with the immigrants in your community.

[Disillusioned_American]

Yeah man, please don't go over the edge. You don't want to be another One L. Goh or some shit. I mean, imagine being that guy right now, and having to face seven murder charges. That guy's life is pretty much over with.

I am white myself, but it doesn't matter. American women might as well have thrown their feces at me, for all of of the cruel treatment and rejection that I've had to endure from them all my life. The worst part of it is that, I became so nervous and hurt from it all, that even when a cute girl actually DID bother to show an interest in me, I was far too messed up psychologically to be receptive towards them. Then I would always kick myself afterwards, and feel extreme self-hatred for having f***ed up a decent opportunity to actually land a pretty girl. Talk about severe internal frustration...

Dude, I can totally relate to what you're going through. I watched my cousin - the biggest player and jerk of all time - pump and dump hot women for years, and then he finally ends up scoring a hot wife who has a great career, and spends all of her money on him! My family had the nerve to brag to me about how great the wedding was. I wasn't invited. He and his (at the time) fiancé treated me like shit when we all lived together, and I finally had enough, snapped at him, and threatened to beat his ass to a pulp, lol. He hasn't talked to me since. I wish I hadn't lost my cool, because once again I ended up looking like the fool and loser, meanwhile this guy has tons of friends and a hot wife. Imagine dealing with that kind of shit; it really f***ed up my head for a while. I even moved halfway across the country to get away from everyone.

Listen, just make a plan to get the f**k out of this evil country - whatever it takes. I am leaving the US in a week, and I don't have any plan of returning. I have had ENOUGH! Please, think rationally before you blow your opportunity to turn things around for yourself. You're worth more than these shitty, rotten-ass american cunts.

[Jackal]

To the OP:
Don't do anything violent because you will regret it later. Anyway, violence is very American, so you should get away from being trapped in an American way of thinking.

Follow the advice that others gave here and take a nice, relatively inexpensive vacation to a foreign country (maybe to Quebec in Canada or to Mexico).

And if you're on the edge, there are many types of nonviolent pranks which could be done, such as filling up someone's car with dead fish, throwing squid in a disco, etc.

[MrPeabody]

If you want, you could probably be in Korea in 3 months. First get your CELTA degree (1 month) and then get an English Teacher job in South Korea. This happens to be one of the top employers of English Teachers. I don't understand why someone would continue in a miserable situation when it is actually possible to leave. You just have to decide your happiness is number one and put all other considerations as secondary. It's a matter of priorities. If you decide to stay in the US, then recognize that it is your decision and don't complain about it. After I decided to leave America, I was gone in one year.


CELTA Courses

http://www.eslbase.com/courses/celta


Korea Jobs

http://forums.eslcafe.com/korea/

[All_That_Is_Man]

If you want, you could probably be in Korea in 3 months. First get your CELTA degree (1 month) and then get an English Teacher job in South Korea. This happens to be one of the top employers of English Teachers. I don't understand why someone would continue in a miserable situation when it is actually possible to leave. You just have to decide your happiness is number one and put all other considerations as secondary. It's a matter of priorities. If you decide to stay in the US, then recognize that it is your decision and don't complain about it. After I decided to leave America, I was gone in one year.


CELTA Courses

http://www.eslbase.com/courses/celta


Korea Jobs

http://forums.eslcafe.com/korea/

Why would you need a CELTA? I actually have a BA degree, and I was told that that was all I need.

[ladislav]

I mean so angry at the world because they treat you like a tool. I mean so angry that the only way to relieve you pain is to give someone else your pain.
I mean so angry that you want to get a gun to shoot the people that wronged you.

For me lots of my anger comes from my social interaction. I still remember those times when I approach girls in bars and got the nastiest rejection. I mean a polite no could of done the job but to berate and put me down is just being mean. And these are Asian American girls I'm approaching. I know I know some of you will say these are American girls so f**k them.

But the pain still lingers and festers like cancer.

Nothing that a cuddle from a cute Filipina won't cure.

I get ignored . I get over looked. I can't help but feel ugly and unattractive. Is it any wonder that I turn to international dating for my salvation. It's like that is the only way.

There is no water in the Sahara. This is why you do not spend days and days there constantly bemoaning the lack of water there. You just go to the Nile.

I get mad at my parents for immigrating to USA.

I used to, also. But I could have died in Afghanistan or come back a cripple.

I always wonder what life could of been for me in South Korea growing up. I feel that I might be more secure as a man. I still get mad because my family depends on me so it's hard for me to relocate to another country. There are times I think about killing off my parents because I am so unhappy here in the states. But they are my parents it's not their fault. They didn't know how America really is.

Yeah, I know and your story is typical. So start doing what many of us have done. Just turn your frustration into determination.

I get mad at all the Asian American girls I see who act all high and mightly..actually allot of the American girl. I feel that one solution is to get a gun buy plenty of ammo and just go on a shooting spree.

Ah, just let them enjoy their short lived party in the USA. They as women have a short shelf life. They can't be 50 plus and be dating 18-24 year old guys. We as guys can date younger women. Provided we get out of the country and have a bit of money.

I am a fat middle aged guy with a bald head. I am going to be 52 and now had an 18 year old female visitor, not a hooker but just a nympho girl ( there are many in Cebu). The words rocking like a hurricane came to mind. She is so cute, she looks like one of Michael Jackson's sisters. We spent an hour and a half with her basically raping me- the passion was incredible. And I was thinking of you.

I have this crazy fantasy ..of just killing someone. That's how angry I am. I actually saw a therapist about this....

Cause you are not home. Why don't you come home?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IgN0e8DJHvM

I'm angry at him for charging me so much with little help.

Hey, dude. I can recommend this therapy to take care of how you are feeling now

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bh5UrJi1-EA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7krqHPxx ... re=related

cheaper and no stuck up b-tches here.

This therapist in particular is very interested in your condition and wants to start treatment right away.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=woOROcUR ... re=related

Anyone...get that angry. I mean I told a friend I want to get a gun go into one of those night clubs and shoot those stuck up bitches..or get a knife and stab them over and over....that's how angry I am.

Man, that is a lot of energy going to waste. Think of how you can put it into creating an online income so that you can live in a good country.

And while you are at it, just look for a good travel agent to get you some discount tickets to the paradises many of us are living in now.

And the best shooting you can do is a load into your 20 year old SE Asian girlfriend's mouth. I have one that loves to swallow. I did not know that my dickhead had a nuclear payload. Now I know that I have a natural atomic warhead. When it exploded today, I saw not only stars but distant galaxies unseen by even the most advanced telescopes. And the stress accumulated for decades disappeared into her eager throat. No therapists needed. And you will leave the US racial apartheid system behind and be treated for the content of your character as well as your wallet. And nothing else.

(PS this is just me ranting....I'm not over the edge yet...)

Well, dude, you should not be angry at the WORLD, you should be angry at your situation in the USA. And you need to REMOVE yourself from the USA. Because I am still in the world, just in a different part of it.



I am in Cebu now visiting the places where I first came ashore and onto this magic Planet of Girls. Have just celebrated my 21 years in and out of the Philippines and 2.5 years of living here full time. My marriage to this country has not gotten weaker; we have not drifted apart. I cannot imagine my life now without this country, its people and most of all the women. Driven out of the US by the same emotions you are experiencing now. Just relaxing in my hotel and getting ready to teach a class online. Gorgeous girls texting me non stop and asking me OUT! The sea is nearby and everyone is friendly and respectful. Puffed up chests and steely looks are a nightmare from a long past. Reading your account makes me remember those old, old times. Just concentrate on what good America has to offer like education, technology and credit and make your exit plans. You will soon be in a hotel in Cebu with girls texting you and asking you when they can go to the beach with you.

Oh, by the way Cebu is full of Koreans and I see some not so attractive Koreans with all these super model Filipinas. Get over here dude! They love us social outcasts here.

Blessed are those who are aware of alternatives.

[Falcon]

If you are an Asian-American male, you will understand chanta76. It feels very, very bad to be betrayed by your own kind. This is not natural, and only comes about in racist environments. Many black American men (and even white American men too) are going through the same situation. I still think about these things because I am still surrounded by hordes of stuck-up Asian-American women in college.

Earlier in my life, from elementary school to high school, I've been chronically ignored and ridiculed by many Asian-American girls, and have felt very bitter about it (Authoritarian, borderline abusive female Asian authority figures further exacerbated this). They can be incredibly cold, nagging, irritable, cliquish, close-minded and even vengeful. At least around me, they never flirt or appear to be easy to talk to. I hate the way they glance at me sideways with their eyeballs, with their perm-a-scowls on. Many would rather bury themselves in their iPhones and textbooks than pay even a single second of attention to a fellow Asian guy. Their attitudes change 180 degrees when they are around white guys with Asian fetish, which is why many white people don't get to see the other sides of these AA women. Recently I was told by an AA girl to shut up and be quiet because she needs to study for her O-chem test. Another had demanded a few hundred dollars from me for a minor bike accident. It's quite sad (or rather bittersweet) that women from entirely different foreign cultures would respect me far more than those of my own kind. These years and years of negative conditioning have screwed me up psychologically, so now I am usually subconsciously repelled by East Asian women speaking fluent American English. I feel very nervous and uncomfortable around them even if they are perfectly nice people. I'm not as angry as chanta and am far from being over the edge, but I still feel bitter at times.

I no longer associate extensively with Americanized East Asians. Instead of going to Las Vegas with fellow Asian-American college students during school breaks, I prefer to hop on Volaris flights by myself and be an outgoing, lovable "chinito" rather than yet another insignificant "Asian."

And ladislav, thank you for your wonderful insights again. You really are helping many others out there.

[Billy]

god damned . i thought ladislav is respectable old guy. but i was wrong. he is a sex pervert . but i like what he wrote. damn, i makes to want to skip turkey and book a ticket to the PI. Man you are hilarious