Jester wrote:green1976 wrote:
As for me,i've said this in my previous post, i don't even want to see French females or whatever western ladies or similar people as i found my destiny,my life,my type of ladies in Thailand.
After visiting quit a lot of countries(Latin America or other European states),by no way i will trade what i've experience in Thailand be it p4p or gf,founding what exactly i want.
Like all my previous trip,as my next departure is approaching in some days, i'm like reviving, feeling like a child going to a candy store and finally be myself.
What a relieve,i just know that i will stroll around with my buddy in the countryside finding for sure some very nice ladies to see and to flirt with.
I"ve done this before and what a f***ing great things to do..just be somebody natural who is not looked like a perv because he smile to a chick or start a conversation.
This time i'm also planning everything about to find the right lady for me who will permit me to pass my genes and reproduce.
That's not an easy task to take care of a child but it will be the best response i could ever have in my life by finally bypassing the destiny i was entitled to in France, erasing forever females here for a lady in Thailand who will bear my child.
Please bump the previous post and tell us more.
I wake up every morning lonely and miserable, contemplating suicide.
I am so against p4p, but I may have to go do it one day not too distant.
I would like to hear more about somewhere where there is love - temporary or more.
Contemplating suicide is the path who will please the system.
Hard to support this everyday, but there is no other solution than to work to reach the goal who is to find a place where you will feel validated as a human being and to be a man who connect with women there.
It's awful for me too..as i don't have nothing in common with females here,it would be the same in the US...so i'm totally restricted in only lonely activities besides sometime exercising.
This is why after indulging myself to p4p in Thailand and having gf all around,the time for me as come to construct a more solid ground,to build something and that would be no more than to find the right one having a child with.
If it was for me,in the ideal condition,i would not hurry up like,but i have no other choice to make my life bearable where i am.
I cannot support myself financially in Thailand for even 1 year..so i'm just going and coming back..but each passing year i get older, without having something solid there.
It will be a very interesting experience as i will go back there in June for less than a month,and i will check how my possibilities are to make what i want.
I'm not expecting to do everything right now...i just want to see how i will score there.
My next step will be a 3 months after this summer.
At this moment i will do everything reasonably to make what i want possible.
It will be step after step, but i'm still confident to be in a good position to find ladies who will be interested in me.
There's no love as a magic spell..only some cultures who are more favorable to interact with females.
Nothing is granted.
I've been many times to Thailand,i speak little bit Thai,i know some of the basic there without accepting the fact that bad surprise are always there as a possibility.
To your information and speaking for myself,but this could probably be your case,it's a lot easier to find true love in Thailand than where we are.
They are not even a single piece of hesitation when i tell you that.
I just can compare how miserable i was here when i was having a gf in France versus Thailand.
It got so many hurdles to even catch one,just to be totally disgusted in how they treat men and in how they expect men to behave.
As i always say,for those who like to play the card "they only think about your money,you are only a wallet in Thailand"it's ok for me and be it if it's the case.
I just take everything of what Thailand is , to where it will go for me.
If i have to lose there,i will lose but i will play hard to win my game.