Painless Overdose?

[Tsar]

If I used heroin, took a bunch of Oxycodone and sleeping medication, and drank a glass or two of 30%+ liquor world it be painless and 100% successful?

If I am not in in treatment by the end of September, I am seriously thinking about ending my life regardless of having a lot left I want to do...

My pain, discomfort, and frequent nightmares are getting to be too much.

Honestly, there is not much that could make me seriously consider ending my life but my current condition is one of them.

Are there any medical professionals or doctors in the world that might take a bribe to tell me the current dosages to overdose on that combination?

I won't slice my veins or hang myself. I would want something painless and clean.

That rules out everything except overdose...

But if whatever I have is really complicated or almost certainly fatal or if attempting to cure me would be very painful then I am still considering ending my life if there's a chance.

I have never really felt this hopeless before...but the US healthcare system is useless and incompetent... whatever I have, I don't think anything like herbs, minerals, garlic can beat it or help me too..

I will try everything but there will come a time where it either becomes too painful or I just can't waste my time trying for what might be an impossible cure anymore.

I knew weeks ago that I could probably die from whatever infection I have or from suicide.

I already know when I go abroad again really soon, it is likely going to be a one way trip.

Should I get the Covid-19 vaccine? See if it effects me?

I estimate the odds I will commit suicide sometime in October or November at 50% I do it and 50% that I don't. Assuming I am actually alive which I will be if whatever I have hasn't killed me.

I found websites abroad that sell heroin, oxycodone, and I am sure getting sleeping pills is easy. I imagine that I would become unconscious before I I actually die from suicide.

Maybe I should buy a life insurance policy that allows for a suicide payout after a year or two. Maybe I could easy bribe a foreign girl or two to have me an heir. Then I will end my life, allowing my heir to live a great life as a millionaire and she gets a six figure payout.

Any thoughts about what I should do?

I should probably have a lawyer read through an insurance policy document.

Are lawyers obligated by law to report clients who are contemplating suicide or is it protected by attorney-client privilege?