I just 'discovered' this forum today: and only just started reading. But it already feels like a breath of fresh air to me. I think I finally found some place where I belong.
So I’m a 23yr old, typical, white, middle-class (actually closer to lower class) American. I live in New Orleans.. I got a Bachelor’s degree in Finance last year, and am still unemployed. I gave 4 years of my life to get that degree, but it didn’t go to waste - because I will Earn my initial wealth through other means, and THEN use that knowledge to *grow my wealth.
I’ve given up looking for a job months ago – and now I’m trying to make it as a web-entrepreneur.
Relationships: I’m single. Actually just went through the most horrible, damaging, scarring experience of my life (thus far). As I almost Killed myself over it. But I survived, and kept my sanity. Although I don’t know how long it will take for the wounds to fully heal.
NOW my life is characterized by Only 3 goals:
1. To make as much MONEY as humanly possible.
2. To get out of this f***ing disgusting Shit-hole of a country!
3. *And sleep with as many beautiful foreign women, as humanly possible, before I die.
I guess I do want to have an actual relationship with some of these women instead of just sleep with them. But I know the nature of such things is transient. I don't have a lot of hope or expectations for that...
And also as a bonus - I’m want to rub it in my Ex’s face, one day.. The fact that she is a disgusting piece of filth and she is never going to get a chance with me again: When she’s divorced, all alone, OLD, wrinkled, disgusting, on antidepressants because her life has gone to shit, and she threw away the ONE good person in her life who actually GAVE A DAMN about her. She’s simply not good enough.
I don’t care what anyone says or thinks about me now. I don’t care what my family or friends think. *I don’t care if they disapprove of my behavior. Because I can see how hollow and shallow they really are – they’re just as unhappy as me, because they’re all in dysfunctional/failing marriages.. or dead-end relationship. And they want to try to give me advice on how I should live my life?? YEah right!
I don’t think so.
Also I've come to the conclusion that I don't ever want to have kids. EVER. I'm 100% sure about that now.. I grep up as an only child in an abusive household. Even without the abuse, it was still hell. *If I did have kids, couldn't bear to have 2 or more children and retain my sanity & my freedom. So I just won't have any...
Not having kids or any family ties will make it significantly easier to travel the world and leave my past life behind.
I want to live this life in the moment, how I want to live, enjoying every day - and only for me. My focus is on my own happiness and pleasure first and above all else.
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I feel like Neo who just got “unplugged†from the Matrix and can see the "truth", through all the lies, for the very first time... Or maybe I just opened my eyes to it.
I have been set free.
So Yeah, that’s my introduction. Selfish aren’t I?
