Kalinago wrote: ↑March 15th, 2023, 9:53 am
I'm just genetic garbage.
my pakistani ex gf contacted me yesterday,and I finally felt a sense of joy and optimism in my life,like a light going on in absolute darkness.
horrible circumstances since childhood that wojuld make most people rope,genetic inherited autism,traumatic experiences like being beaten everyday at home and bullying, creating ptsd and ocd,and being excluded from basic human experiences,having a dying bedridden mother and living in abject poverty made me who I am.
its all pointless.
even sex is pointless,just useless blind gene replication.
even if I am garbage,you will all be exterminated soon by the small hats unless your asses get up and organize and spread awareness like I'm doing.
I can relate to what you're saying. I too suffer from autism and some degree of dysprosody as well as frequent fatigue (which I suspect is related to my autism). I'm quite dissatisfied with the circumstances of my own life. I even resent fate.
Forget about "god" (i.e., Yahweh) and his "angels". I believe that those beings are real but they're not what they claim to be. Yahweh and his angels are in reality evil jailors who trap our souls in this world of insanity over which they reign and subject us to their unjust abuse. They inoculate our souls with weaknesses and inflict all kinds of suffering upon us via our etheric bodies. At the moment of bodily death, don't go into the light! It's a trap!!! The "beings of light" which people see in NDEs are impostors. What lies beyond the white light and the alluring landscapes is an astral gulag of imprisonment and torture. If your soul is captured, you will be subjected to abuse and then reincarnated by those impostors into a negative incarnation full of limitations and suffering. Always look to flee and reincarnate yourself (or escape from the astral matrix if possible)!
The miserable slave religions serve only to enslave the soul and somehow justify this sad state of affairs and injustice. Those cruel jailors attempt to portray themselves as our legitimate masters. But I see through their cruel hoax. So I left the evil fold of Christianity and distanced myself from all of the sick retarded Christians who are perverse enough to follow that Jewish garbage and became a rebellious soul seeking to resist this insane system and fight for our freedom. Let all of the braindead retards bow down to their murderous and sociopathic Jew god and worship their filthy Jew master on the cross! I want no part of their collective insanity! Those of us who see through the deception and cruelty are slandered by the Christian flock. But Christians, especially the fanatical types, are utterly brainwashed by their Jewdeo-Christian slave program or are sometimes fundamentally perverse and twisted at the level of the soul. The latter are nothing more than contemptible enemies of Life.
Submitting to the evil Jew god or Jewsus or the "angelic" jailors is futile. Their version of "Heaven" is nothing more than a Kabbalistic thoughtform, an astral gulag and a completely false idea of salvation. In contrast, The only way to protect oneself from the influence of those hostile entities is to work on one's own subtle anatomy, strengthen the aura through meditation, open the thakras through mantric vibrations, open the body's nadis/energy channels through Hatha Yoga, and ultimately raise the Kundalini and complete the alchemical Opus Magnum for our ascension to godhood (this knowledge was known to the Egyptians and is even alluded to in the Bible as the forbidden "knowledge of good and evil" given by the Serpent, i.e., Kundalini, forbidden only because Yahweh and his reptilian henchmen never wanted us to reach godhood ourselves and preferred for us to remain enslaved to them and their artificial system). Forget about submission to abusive dickhead celestial tyrants who love blood sacrifice and genocide! To hell with fear-based indoctrination and threats of hell and damnation! f**k submission to those slave programs and f**k all of the weak-minded worthless NPC retards who promote that evil shit! The only way to transcend this predicament is to cultivate our own personal power, especially that of the soul and on an occult level.
You're not the problem. Your soul has simply been incarnated into a body with defects and afflicted with certain problems. But your desire to leave the fold of Christ-insanity and all of its metaphysical abuse shows that you are strong enough to see through the deception and escape.
If ever you are feeling bad and need to talk, you can PM me or Pixel--Dude. Take care, my friend!